His sunflower

chapter 22

Abby's Pov

I'm freaking out. Me and Johnny made out. In the park of all places. What the fuck was I thinking? And I can't even rant about this to Sierra or Maddy because they don't know that we're fake dating. I really want to tell them but I can't risk the news getting out. I don't need Josh thinking it's okay to try getting me again.

I went downstairs to get a snack to eat my feelings because I am that girl. When I went into the fridge to found a snack I got an instagram notification from none other than Becca. But I was tagged? I clicked on it to see what she posted. When I saw what she posted I literally almost dropped my phone. It was me and Josh in the classroom. When he assaulted me. She captioned it Abby sexually assaults my boyfriend. And just like the caption she got a picture that made it seem like I was pushing up on him and he was trying to get me off of him. How? I literally was trying to push him off the whole time. I guess Becca isn't over the whole thing. She didn't even give me a warning like the mean girls in movies do. You know like the "Watch your back" yea I didn't get one of those.

A few minutes later Sierra texts me all panicked asking what was happening. I calmly explained how that was when Josh assaulted me. She responded with "He assaulted you?!" I forgot to tell her. I feel real stupid. How could I forget to tell my best friend? And she's mad I didn't. To make up for it we called and she added Maddy to it. I explained it all and even added the part about my dad. They said they forgive me but me being me I don't believe them. I feel horrible. They say they don't blame me for not telling them because it's abuse or whatever but I blame myself.

We talk about random stuff and I debate on just telling them that we're fake dating. I decided against it. I'll talk to Johnny first. I don't need any more problems right now. At this point i'm just trying to keep the fake relationship going. It's getting harder as things become less important. I'm not excited to get back to school because I already know what everyone is going to be saying. After a bit of talking they had to go. Instead of thinking about what's going to happen tomorrow I watch tv and end up falling asleep.

I wake up to my annoying alarm clock and slowly get out of bed and into the shower. I take a quick shower and then get dressed in some grey sweatpants and a black crop top. I put my hair up in a messy bun and put on some white nike air forces. I go downstairs to eat the breakfast my mother so kindly made for me. A stack of pancakes and bacon. The best breakfast out there. After I scarfed down the delicious pancakes I headed to the bus stop for school. Now that me and Johnny are fake dating we sit in the same row on the bus now. I literally can't escape him anymore. When the bus arrived he was running down the sidewalk like most mornings. When he made it he saw me and gave me a small smile before sitting down next to me.

We occasionally made small talk but we both think it's too early in the morning to actually talk, so instead we sit there in comfortable silence looking out the window. When we arrived at the school I got what I expected. The little whispers and pointing. Hearing girls tell their friends i'm a slut or a whore.I eventually caught Becca's eye and she just smirked and waved. I rolled my eyes and flipped her off. Johnny heard it all too and in response he pulls me closer and squeezes my hand reassuringly. Johnny didn't even question the post because I actually told him what happened. Crazy how communication builds trust. And I stupidly made my best friends question that by not telling them.

I got those comments through out the day. In every single class. Being part of rumors is exhausting. I might pull a a tall girl and make a speech. Just kidding. Just kidding. I'm not that dramatic. Ok I can be but that's not the point right now. When lunch rolled around I sat at my normal table with the group. We didn't really talk about anything though. Sierra and Maddy still looked a little pissed off about me not telling them and Dylan was oblivious to it all. He tried making small talk but they just answered with vague answers. Johnny say there awkwardly because he also didn't know what was going on but unlike Dylan he sensed the tension.

After school I went to the bus stop and saw Johnny. Perfect. I'm gonna ask him about telling my friends about the whole fake dating thing. I mean what's gonna happen if I do?

"Hey"

"Hey, so I have a question.."

"What's up" He looked confused

"Can I tell Sierra and Maddy that we're just fake dating. I really need girls to talk to about all of this"

"Sure. I don't really care as long as they keep their mouths shut."

"Ok cool thanks" well that was easy "Oh also I won't be riding the bus tomorrow."

"What. Why?"

"I have to bring Sierra somewhere after school so i'm driving my car."

"Oh okay"

When the bus dropped me off at my stop I texted Sierra and Maddy to come over because we needed some girl time. They agreed. When they got to my house we immediately started talking and hugging and all that. I decided to wait a bit before dropping the bomb on them that my relationship with Johnny is fake.

In the mean time we watched some teen wolf and fan girled over Stiles Stilinski. We also made new ships that we know would never happen but more for laughs because you gotta add some spice right. After a few episodes of that we played a few rounds of the game For the girls which is really fun when you play with close friends. After a bit I told them we should do the tea circle we always end up doing. I had Sierra go first and then Maddy because I had to grow a pair before I could tell them. When it got to my turn they both looked at me expectantly.

"So...about Johnny and me"

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how do you think they'll react?? will they eventually drift or will they understand?