Memories ~ JAMES POTTER

Chapter 10-Summer

T//w Mentions of abuse

Summer 1973: Letters

Dear James,

Do you think me and Sirius could stay the rest of the summer because our home situation is to great right now and it's awful here, Sirius hides in a closet most of the time while i'm hiding under a bed writing this letter please write back soon

P.s.

Ar eagla go bhfuil duine eile ag léamh seo tá mo mhamaí agus Aintín Walburga tar éis sinn a dhíshealbhú agus níl aon áit againn le dul agus mar sin táim á scríobh seo as Gaeilge

Translation for the peeps who don't know Irish

(Just in case someone else is reading this my mum and Aunt Walburga have evicted us and we have nowhere to go so I'm writing this in Irish)

                    -

                        Estelle Black

Dear Estelle

That's awful. I've talked to my mum and dad, they said you and Sirius could stay as long as you need and I've talked to Remus (I didn't give him any details.) he will be staying also if you don't mind. You guys and come as soon as you want we have everything arranged for your stay.

                          -

                            James Potter

t//w Mentions of Suicide

Summer 1973: James house

Estelle and Sirius start packing as soon as they get James' letter. They sneak some Floo powder and flooed to James house as soon as they got there Estelle was tackled in a hug.  "Hey Tiny Black." James mutters in her neck. "Hey Jamie." she replies. "Are you ok? Did they do anything to you?" He started looking at her arms and legs and as soon as he did his face went pale. "Did you do this Ellie?" he whispers. "Everything got too much for me and I couldn't handle it anymore." tears were falling down her face. "Elle you could've died." he yells. "I'm sorry ok? I was just banned from my home and the only family I have left now is Sirius and he's keeping something from me. Peter is who knows where, you and Lizzy spend all your time together and Remus can't help because he has bigger problems." she yells back crying harder. "So i'm sorry that no one sees i'm struggling, I'm sorry no one saw that i'm slowly dying on the inside." she adds whispering. "Elle.. I'm sorry I-I didn't know or- ''''Don't I don't need your sympathy Potter and my names Estelle not 'Elle' or 'Tiny Black.' only my friends can use my nicknames and you're definitely not my friend anymore." she glares at him. She immediately regrets her choice of words when she sees his face but she runs upstairs to the closest empty bedroom. She looks around and sees pictures of James and comes to the conclusion it was his room. She smiles seeing a picture of her and James from last year they was smiling and he was making a stupid face. They were hugging. She remembered that it was right after they did a huge prank.

Flashback

"Come on Siri it'll be fun just throw it!" Elle yells and he throws the fireworks. "See? Wasn't it fun?" she smirks the Infamous Black Smirk. "What are you looking at Potter?" She teases. "Sorry Black I thought I saw something but I guess it was just your ugly face." He jokes, smiling his goofy lopsided smile. "Oh I didn't know I was a Mirror." She smirks again, walking away.

Flashback ends

She starts tearing up thinking of that day. James was her best friend. How could she say all those awful things to him? She got so upset and was awful to him. She turns to go back downstairs to apologize but the door opens before she can. "James, I'm really sorry." She says when she sees his face. "It's fine you were upset." They hug. "James I really am-" he cuts her off by kissing her. "It's fine," he says, blushing a little. "Wait did you just-" he cuts her off again. "Yeah sorry." he scratches the back of his neck. "Do it again." she says "what?" He looks at her. "Kiss me again Jamie I've had enough time." he smiles and kisses her again this time it was deeper and more passionate. "What about Liz?" Estelle asks worriedly. "We broke up weeks ago and we figured we were better as friends." he looks at her "What about Peter?" he asks "I'm tired of looking and trying to find him it's like he's never there and when he is he isn't really there you know?" she looks down "Yeah I guess he's always been like that." He says plopping down on his bed. "So what is this? Just us kissing and then going back to us acting like we're just friends?" Estelle asks, laying on the bed beside him. "I don't know what do you want it to be?" James asks. "Let's take it slow, us still being best of friends then see where that takes us." she declares. "Ok well before that happens...." he trails off and kisses her again. They stay like that until they have to pull away to breathe. "Maybe we shouldn't wait..." she whispers and he smiles. Just then the doorbell rings. "Should we tell the boys yet?" he looks at her "If you want them to know you can tell them but I'm a changed man." he says jokingly. "Honey I'm home." Sirius and Remus's voice rings through the house. "We'll be down in a second, boys!" Estelle yells down the stairs. "You better not be fucking my cousin Potter!" Sirius yells jokingly causing James to blush. "Why does he say things like that?" Estelle laughs at James state. "He's just joking, Jamie." James walks down the stairs mumbling about how unfair Sirius's 'joking' is. "So we know you two wasn't just 'talking' in there so explain now." Remus demands after James and Sirius leave. "We kissed." she says simply. "What and you didn't tell me?!" he fakes being offended. "You didn;t tell me when you started falling for my cousin." she teases and he blushes. "Wooowww." he replies smiling. "Fine, we kissed and we're dating." Estelle tells him. "Wait, what about Peter?" Remus asks and she  explains everything about him, and her not having feelings for him anymore."Soooo you and Sirius huh?" she teases. "I didn't even know I was gay until like four days ago Elle." he reminds her. "I know I know buuuut technically If... I mean WHEN you two get married you'll be part of my family so maybeeee you should man up and talk to himmmm." She says, trying to persuade him. "Oh Merlin, I'll be related to you? No thanks." he teases, causing her to jokingly slap his shoulder lightly. Later that night James and Sirius walk into the living room to see Estelle and Remus asleep on the couch. "Can you get Estelle? She seems more comfortable when you do those kinds of things." Sirius asks. "Yeah sure, what about Remus?" "I've got him, just get Elle." He says. "Ok." James picks up Estelle and carries her to his room. Estelle stirs awake slightly. "Jamie?" She whispers. "I'm right here Love." he says laying beside her. "I really am utterly in love with you." she mutters. "So am I. Our lives are so messed up right now I just want you to know you're the only one for me." he whispers. "Now go back to sleep," he adds.

The next Morning

"Guys! Get down here." Sirius calls. "What?" Estelle says running downstairs. "Ellie! I missed you!" Peter says. "No You're not doing this again I haven't seen you almost all year and you decide to show up no leave." Estelle says. "What is it- You." James says angrily. "Aw so I see you've moved on?" Peter says, turning back to Elle. "Yeah I have and I'm happier than I was with you." Estelle sneers. "You left multiple times and didn't tell us where you were. I'm done looking and searching for something or someone that's never there." She adds, grabbing James' hand. "I gave you chance after chance and you kept leaving and everytime I did stuff I regretted it but I'm happy now and I don't need you so leave, you're not welcome here anymore." She finishes. "This isn't the last you'll hear from me, Doey." Peter sneers, "You're not a Marauder, you can't call me that anymore." She says. "You betrayed us all, you told us you were getting better, that it was just family problems or was it just you finding someone else to spend your time with?"  James asks. "You don't know the whole story James." He says. "Just leave." Sirius sneers and with that he leaves. They all turn to Estelle who immediately breaks. "Why after everything why'd he decide to actually come back?" She asks. "It's fine Ellie. You'll be fine, We will be fine." James reassures her. They spent the rest of the day distracting each other from what happened that morning. The summer went on and they heard nothing from Peter which they were glad for. Their fourth year slowly crept up on them and they were excited for it. They were anxious for what to come, Yes but they were excited that they'd spend another year together and they could finally spend a year with each other with no problems. Or so they thought.