As I came down the garden path, Nadia was running towards me, her hair a dishevelled mess. No makeup. Her gorgeous olive cheeks were streaked with tears.
There were no words. She just hugged me and cried and cried. We stood there for a few minutes outside in the pouring rain ignoring how cold we were. The time was ticking and I was conscious of us not having much of that.
"Come on, let's get her to the vets. She's gonna be okay," I tried to tell myself, and my sister. If I said it enough, it might come true right?
"No, we're not going... to the vets... anymore," Nadia choked on her words and I suddenly felt very cold. "She's gone."
Why did I ignore all those calls and texts?
Why?
If only I'd actually listened to my mum and my sister. Maybe this wouldn't have happened. If only I'd come home sooner. If only I hadn't been stupid enough to try and spend my day off watching Star Wars movies with my stupid not-even boyfriend. Maybe we could've saved her. Maybe it wouldn't have been too late.
Maybe I would have got to say goodbye.
Now I never would. I'd never get that back. Never get my dog back. She was gone. Forever.
Over her limp body I wept and kissed her soft fur. I'd never forgive myself for this.
Candy...
***
2020 / Tuesday, December 1st
13:27
Alex🖤💜
when do you wanna continue our star wars marathon? ;)
21:30
Alex🖤💜
did you speak to nadia?
is she mad at me? :(
are you mad at me?
23:47
Alex🖤💜
are you ok? :(
***
2020 / Wednesday, December 2nd
14:12
Alex🖤💜
do you wanna hang out today? <3
Instagram
imallexx
yoooo did you get my messages?
16:10
Alex🖤💜
me and george are going nandos later, wanna come?
17:40
Alex🖤💜
george is really hungry!! hurry!!!!!!!
18:31
Alex🖤💜
too late :( hope ur ok?
***
2020 / Thursday, December 3rd
22:10
Alex🖤💜
yo!! are you free tomorrow?
23:11
Alex🖤💜
make a wish 😘💘
Instagram
imallexx
yo callie! are you free tomorrow?
***
2020 / Friday, December 4th
9:20
Alex🖤💜
hey! guess you're really busy. if you're free tonight my brother is having a bday party. you should come! i'll send you the address. hope you can make it 💜
11:37
George🌌
Hey Callie 😌 Alex is worried about you. You should call him when you can! Also you should totally go to his brother's party tonight. I won't be there so have fun!
***
"Come on Callie, at least today. It'll do you some good to get outside!"
After a few days of questioning who my sister was and if I'd ever get her back, Nadia was back to strong mode. And back to militantly tugging my duvets off me, while I refused to even open my eyes. Not in full force yet, but she was recovering faster than me. I admired her for that. But I was weak and pathetic in comparison.
"Okay, okay, I'll drop off the clothes. I'll try," I grumbled and got out of bed, shivering and draped in the same old Waterparks t-shirt I'd been wearing all week. Outside was even less tempting but inside this house right now felt so empty and sad. Nothing was the same anymore. I didn't want this to be real. Any of it. Even though the better part of me knew sleeping wasn't going to make my life any better, it was the best I could do for now to make everything go away.
So that's what I'd been doing since Tuesday. I could barely manage to eat or drink. Nothing seemed nice anymore. Not even the thought of seeing Alex. I was still mad at myself for choosing him over my family. And no way was I about to make that mistake again.
"Got it?" Nadia sounded confident and sure of herself once more, placing one last cardboard box into my arms. Not wanting to end up in the mud of our garden, I staggered to balance myself better.
"Yep, I got it. I'll make sure these get there on time and I'll sort out the books and paperwork. You don't have to worry!" On the damp concrete slabs coated with moss, I placed the stack of boxes down and unzipped our trusty purple suitcase before loading it up. It just about squeezed shut.
"Alright, Cal. Have fun!" Nadia blew me a kiss and turned back to go inside the house. Our mum just stood there, waving me off like she was so proud. As if I was a kid going to my first day at school.
This week hadn't been easy on any of us. And it was about to get worse. A whole lot worse.
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We Really Need To Stop // ImAllexx
Romance[ ImAllexx x OC ] When Callie gets a message from Alex, she never expected it to lead to this. But she does something terrible that drives everyone she loves away from her, including Alex. Can she overcome her demons and win the boy of her dreams ba...
