nevertheless~

part 09

Tessa POV

The air has picked up and it's become slightly colder here on the roof, we should be heading down by now, but this is nicer and peaceful. A simple question passes through me and I don't hesitate from asking him it.

"Do you think, that...if you trust your father a little and then maybe leave Smith here with him, he try to get better. It'd be like a boost for him, seeing that you trust him may make him want to be nicer for you guys", I suggest, not hoping him to even consider it.

"He won't. It's happened in the past. I gave him chances after chances but he didn't get better", he answers as he takes out another cigarette.

"Do you think, your mother will ever like you?", he asks and I feel a shift in the atmosphere.

"She might, if my brother didn't exist or something like that", I laugh at my own misery here.

"Why did we never talk like this before?", he asks.

"I don't know. You seem like a good guy to me. I guess, when you work so much, you don't have enough time to talk to everyone, except close people", I answer.

"So, I am close people, now?", he smirks with those indents popping in his cheeks., when he leans forward and I even lean in his direction, voluntarily. I shouldn't but when he looks at me with these eyes that search for me, I can't help it.

"Don't push it. You still work for me", I try to take my eyes from his piercing ones.

"But we're not working now", I say and his eyes glisten with an emotion of something else I have never seen in a man before. I turn further in his direction myself and at this moment, I have no idea how to think of anything else, other than his forest green eyes that are so inviting. This eye contact makes my breath catch in my throat and I wish, that he can hear it to get the hint.

"Are you going to kiss me?", his eyes are fixated on my lips, both irises focusing on my lip as if he is imagining what it'd be like to kiss me.

"I don't know anything right now, should we kiss? Should we not? We are co-workers, we are talking Like this for the first time and I don't know anything", I lean forward to maybe take the advantage of the situation and get this over with. He wants to but he doesn't know it yet, but somewhere deep-down a force is pushing me towards him.

"What would be so bad if you did kiss me", my own vision drops to his lips and I can see exactly how much he wants this. as his bottom lips quiver.

"We'd reach somewhere we don't know anything about", he answers and his hands come to hold the side of my face and I stand on my knees to meet his height.

"Do we know anything about each other", I ask, and I hate that I have to ask so many questions when the only question on my mind is, how his lips would taste like, how kissing him would be like.

He just nods a small no, when I push my hands on his shoulder to get a grip of the ground beneath.

"Then we will get to only know more, and not lose anything", with that, I push my lips to him and a spurge of electricity goes right up my spine when his hands come to my back to bring me nearer. 

His mouth feels warm, this is not a normal kiss or a peck on the lip's kind of thing. This is a risky and deep kiss; one we can't justify because it's coming from a place, we haven't explored with each other. I didn't know I even wanted to kiss him, until this very moment. 

I didn't know kissing him would be something, I would be yearning so much for, but right now as his lips brush against mine and he pulls me by the jaw deeper into him, I realize that my earlier statement was so untrue. I wanted to kiss him for a long time, and I also realize I don't want to stop kissing him. I just want to go on and on. More and more into him.