Finn's Baby- Complete

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Dan pov

I was pissed off at dad to say the least. How could he do this to us? To Lyd? She is the kindest, sweetest, most intelligent person I know and he should be grateful to have such an amazing daughter. The night daddy left, I had convinced myself he would return the next morning. I tried to convince Lydia aswell. Turns out she was right. I had false hope. It has been 3 days and still, the house consists of just me, Lydia, a few maids, couple of butlers and kitchen staff.

It feels lonely believe it or not. We have so much staff in the house but they aren't company. They have their own part of the house which we aren't allowed in. The cooks don't like us going down into the kitchens and the rest of the staff say very few words. They are payed to be nice to us so it just doesn't count.

Lydia's lost her spark. Since mum died, we have both wept and cursed every day. But we soon found hope again as we attempted to cheer up our father. Now he's gone, all the hope as disintegrated and the only thing left are the ashes of our past. Well I couldn't just sit here and watch my sister forget how to smile. I wouldn't sit here and let her lose all hope to ever be happy when there was something I could do about it.

"Lyds, I'm going out for abit" I told her as she sat on the floor in our room, leaving against the bed and looking out the window. She didn't say anything at first. Didn't acknowledge me. After a moment if silence, I walked out. Then I heard

"Everyone I love has left me. You're all I've got left. Please come back to me" I heard her voice crack as she tried to hold back her tears

"Always" I whispered before walking down the stairs and out the house which no longer feels appropriate to be called a home. I walked all the way from the country side to the city. Then, I found my way to the place I was sure he would be. The garrison wasn't very busy since its Sunday morning, but the smell of alcohol and men stank out the place. The only people in there, were the very people I needed to see

"Ello Dan. You alright mate?" Uncle Arthur asked. My whole family was sat in the garrison, having a meeting by the looks of it. I ignored my uncle and walked closer to everyone. I scanned the crowd by my father wasn't wasn't

"Where's me dad?" I asked no one in particular

"I thought he was at home" Aunt pol said

"He's not been home for 3 days. Stormed out the house and hasn't come back" I told everyone. A few gasps were heard and gritted teeth were added into the mix

"Finn wouldn't do that" Uncle john said to everyone

"Well then how come he has? How come he yelled at Lydia for no reason before saying he couldn't handle us anymore? And how come after he left, he hasn't returned. Not drunk. Not sober. Nothing" i yelled losing my temper

"It's alright pal. We'll find him" Uncle Tommy told me. Everyone stood up and we followed Uncle Tommy as he walked around small heath. He spoke to a few people and eventually, he came up to a building where I was told to wait outside. Uncle John waited with me but auntie Arthur and uncle Tommy walked inside. They were trying to protect me but I knew this place well. It's a brothel. The whore house as some call it.

People at school talk about it. And if someone if your family works there, you better hope my fellow pupils don't find out. Anyone who had relatives working in the brothel is disowned by classmates and picked on by everyone. Rude remarks are made by teachers and the only friends are those who's family also works at the whore house

Uncle Tommy and uncle Arthur came out with a very annoyed looking dad

"Dan" he said in shock once he saw me

"Go home" he told me before he started walking away but I ran after him

"No. No I won't go away. I've come here to bring you home" I yelled to him. He didn't stop walking so i was forced to job at his side until he finally stopped

"I'm not coming back. I can't be a good dad to you" he yelled. I wanted to hit him. I wanted to scream and shout about how much u hated him. But I couldn't bring myself to do it. As much as I wanted to hate him, I felt my self pitying him.

"I know when mum died, it hurt you. It hurt us too. But that doesn't give you the right to abandon us" I told him as he crouched to my level

"I...I can't. I'm sorry. You and Lydia will be better off without me" he said quietly

"You're wrong. We've been better off without whatever man you've turned into. But that's not you. You don't smile anymore. You don't laugh. You don't even read to us. I don't care if you leave me. I've already had 1 father leave, it's nothing new to me. But I can't let you hurt Lydia. She's my sister and my best friend. I won't let her feel as abandoned as I do every time someone leaves" I choked on my words trying my best not to cry but failing halfway through

"Lydia's a tough girl. She can handle it" he replied

"She will learn to. Eventually. But do you really want her to have to go through all the tears and pain when it could all be worked out. Just come home and we can fix this" I cried now clutching onto him, begging him to come home

"Dan, look at me. I'm a mess" he muttered. He stood up and began to walk away. I turned to see my uncles watching with both pity and disappointment on their faces. I won't let him leave. I can't lose my family. Not again

"NO. LISTEN TO ME. WE NEED YOU. NOT WHATEVER MESS YOU'VE BECOME. BUT YOU. YOU LOST YOUR WIFE AND I KNOW IT HURTS. BUT WE LOST OUR MOTHER. DONT MAKE US LOSE OUR DAD TOO" I screamed as tears were now flowing down my face. He turned around slowly and I saw the tears on his face. He fell onto the ground and began sobbing so I ran over to him and wrapped my arms around him. He hugged my back and didn't let go

"I'm so sorry" he whispered to me.

"I forgive you. If you come home" I said pulling away and looking at him

"I'm leaving Dan. I can't stay here. Every where reminds me of your mother and I need to get away" he cried

"Then take us with you" I begged. He shook his head slowly before standing up and walking away. I chased after him all the way to the train station, my uncles close behind.

"No" I screamed as he jumped on the train. I ran after it until it was impossible to run any further. The last thing I saw of the train was my father's tear stricken face. I turned around to see my uncles who looked upset for me. With large tears running down my face, I ran over to them. Uncle Tommy picked me up and held me close as I sobbed and screamed for my dad

"Let's get you home" Uncle Tommy said as we walked back from the station. We went to the garrison where his car was. I got in, the tears had stopped but had stained my red cheeks.

"Your father is just upset. He'll be back. And until then, you won't he alone. You can come and stay with me" Uncle Arthur said.

"Lyd won't do that. She likes the house. Says she sees mum in her dreams when she sleeps in dad's bed. But only in dad's bed. No where else does she see her" I told him refusing to look anywhere other than outside

"I could move in with you. Take a guest room if you like" he suggested. I thought about it for a moment before nodding my head. When dad comes back, I won't be so welcoming. He won't be home with a party and love. Instead, I'll fucking kill him