Oh My Captain

Ball 18

Long distance relationship is not easy. You need to invest a lot of trust to each other in order to work it out. Aside from the distance, time is also one of your enemy in this kind of set up.

Minsan nakakatulugan ko nalang siya dahil sa sobrang antok ko. Minsan naman ang tagal naming hindi makapag-usap dahil sa busy schedules namin. We already forsee this kind of barrier and we told each other to have more understanding because this is for our future.

Kanina nga lang, hindi ko napigilang magtaas ng boses. Meron kasi kaming pinagbangayan. I saw a post that he is with his friends in a bar. Okay naman yun sa akin dahil ako rin naman lumalabas kasama ng mga kaibigan ko pero yung merong hinayaan niyang may nakalingkis na babae sa bewang niya... aba! ibang usapan ba yun. That wasn't friendly gesture anymore. Tiwala ako sa kaniya pero wala akong tiwala sa babaeng higad na yun!

What added to the fuel is that, when he throw a blame that if I chose to go with him there, that won't happen. Actually, nabigla ako sa sinabi niya. Parang dinurog ang puso ko. Why would he say that? he knows how much I wanted to go with him or let him stay here. Parang sinasabi niya na kasalanan ko bakit nangyare yun.

He is calling me multiple times today but I didn't answer any of his call. Masyado pang mainit ang sitwasyon namin at ayaw kong kausapin siya sa ganoong estado ng utak ko. I'll cool my mind first.

Buong araw kong inabuso ang sarili ko sa pag-aaral ng mga lessons. Hindi biro ang masters. Unlike noong college kami meron kaming mga exceptions, dito wala. I need to study diligently. May mga times ngang niyaya ako nila Tiff mag bar pero tumatanggi ako kasi ang dami kong kailangang tapusin na mga work projects.

I look at my wrist watch to time check. Nagulat ako dahil almost 10 pm na pala. How long am I here then? 5 hours?. Shocks! nakakahiya sa coffee shop.

Inunat ko muna ang aking mga braso bago sininop ang mga gamit ko. Kahit ang tagal ko na dito, hindi parin ako tapos sa isang presentation ko. I can't just idle because most of my professors are olympian medalist. I am mastering High Performance Sports. This field will lead me someday a future trainer. Since, all I wanted is to have my own school for volleyball for the youngs.

While massaging my eyes, I heard my phone rings. It is from Malonzo. I bit my lower lip while looking at the call, undecided if I will take it or not. I eyed it until it ended. Part of me urges to answer it, but my pride dominated. I was hurt from what he said. Hanggang ngayon dinamdam ko iyon.

Tumayo na ako at disukbit ang bag ko sa aking balikat. I heard another call while I am busy organizing my things. This time, it was from my cousin, Zha.

"He–"

"What the hell, She! you're boyfriend kept bugging me. May nangyare ba sa inyo?" busangal niya agad sa akin at hindi ko manlang natapos ang pagbati ko.

I sighed.

"Did you had a fight?" Medyo kalmado na yung boses niya.

"May hindi lang napagkaintindihan" mahinang saad ko.

I heard her sigh too. "Just answer his call, She. Avoiding is not a solution to it. Mas lalo lang lalala if you let a day pass" komento niya.

I nodded my head as if she sees it.

"God, you grew up so fast" I told her then chuckle a little.

"Excuse me, you're two years apart from me. Kung makapagsalita ka, akala mo ang layo ng agwat mo sa akin" she violently answered.

Tinawanan ko lang ang sinabi niya. It's true though. I bid her goodbye after that and said my apology because we already bothered her too much.

Pagkauwi ko sa condo nagshower na ako kaagad. After that, nagluto ng dinner. Yes, ngayon palang ako mag didinner.