Oh My Captain

Ball 30

I inhaled to fill my lungs with enough air so I can breathe out the nervousness I am feeling right now. I clasp my palm. Even I am wearing a white gloves, I could still feel it moistened a little.

Kaba, saya, at galak ang ilan sa mga nararamdaman ko ngayon. I am still behind close doors but the tension of heart drumming anticipation is growing.

"Relax, baby" mom said as she cupped my face.

I calm down a little. Tipid akong ngumiti at tumango.

"Ganito din ba ang naramdaman niyo noong kinasal kayo my?" I asked her.

"Yes" she nodded. "feel this moment because today is your very special day. Natural lang ang kabahan. It's a journey that is why you feel nervous" mom said.

Niyakap ako ni mommy afterwards."My baby ia getting married now. Huwag kanalang kaya magpakasal, hindi pa ako reading pakawalan ka e" I heard mom softly exclaim. I even heard her voice hoarse.

Natawa nalang ako sa sinabi. Lumapit sa amin si daddy na kanina may pahabol pang kacall.

"Ano ito? sumasang-ayon kana sa akin na huwg nang magpakasal?" bungad ni daddy.

I pouted my lips. Ilang araw na nya akong tinatanong ng ganyan. Kesho umatras na daw ako, but of course I am not taking it seriously. Dad too, is not serious about it.

"Daddy nga..." marahang maktol ko sa ama ko.

Humilay sa akin si mommy at tumabi siya kay daddy. They are both holding my hands now. I am really lucky to have them in my life. They gave me a lot of previleges. They supported all the way. I never heard them complain on my decision in my life. When I got heartbroken my break-up; I didn't hear them say ill words towards Malonzo or to me. They just comforted me with things they usually do on how to make me happy. They are my blessings. I do hope, we can have a happy marriage like our parents.

"Even though I am still not ready to give you to another man, but I needed to. Darating din ang panahon talaga na mawawala kana sa pugad namin. But, always remember, you are always our baby" dad proclaim.

I lifted my head to stop me from crying. Mas lalo akong emotional dahil buntis ako kaya ang bilis-bilis kong umiyak. What my father said was heart warming. It came from his heart. Ramdam ko bawat sinasabi niya dahil nag-iisa lang akong anak nila. I am their gem and they are mine too.

"Thank you daddy. I maybe have another man in my life now, but no one can replace the first man I ever love and mom too. You're my best treasure, more than anthing I have today" I told them wholeheartedly.

Nagpunas si mommy ng luha niya at nakikita ko din na kuminang ang mga mata ni daddy pero dahil gusto niya paring ipakitang lalaki siya, he prevented it from happening, instead he pulled me toward them and embrace me.

Naputol lang ang moment namin nang tinawag na kami ng coordinator. Mom is on my right and dad is on my right. I am clinging my arms in both of them.

Napasinghap pa ako sabay buga din ng malalim bago bumakas ang malaking pinto ng simbahan.

When the door's open, all butterflies in my stomach go wild as they fly around my belly. I inhaled once again to succumb the nervousness I am feeling as I took a step forward.

The beautiful romantic music filled my ears. When we entered the first plate on the entrance, all eyes are on us. I gulped. My heart beats fast. I looked at my mom; she smiled and caress the back of my palm. I inhaled and straighten my back.

Slowly, while feeling the moment of being the center of attraction as I am walking the aisle towards the altar, I saw my man, standing so handsome and dashing on his white three piece suit. I saw him wipe his eye using a handerchief. Madala ko lang siyang makitang umiiyak and this is one of those rarest times he cries.