"Don't do that." She commands, "Do what?" I ask, "Run away." She replies and I sigh, "I'm not." I lie again, "I thought we were past this, guess I was wrong." Billie says, "Past what?" I ask while sitting onto the bed, my back facing her, I don't dare to look at her, scared I might break and tell her the real reason. I don't want her to think she's the reason I'm not doing it, I mean she kind of is, but I'm not only doing it for her, I'm doing it for us.
"Past this bullshit! You literally told me you want to marry me and then you go around acting like a complete dick." She explains starting to get frustrated and I turn around, "What?" I ask confused, "First the other day you ghosted me when I tried kissing you and now this, why won't you tell me what's the issue? I can't help you if I don't know what the goddamn problem is!" She says while starting to get frustrated with me, I did ghost her that one day but I swear I have no idea why I did that. I know I should tell her what's wrong, but I just don't want her to try to convince me to do that stupid project.
"I can't leave you." I mumble while looking down, staring at my hands. I hear footsteps and see Billie's feet appear in front of me, before I could look up I feel her pull me into a comforting hug, "What do you mean?" She asks and I take a deep breath in before answering. "I don't want to stay in LA without you and if I'd accept I'd have to stay there... I love you so much and it's going so well for us, I don't want to fuck anything up, I-I don't want to leave you." I explain sadly.
"You're not leaving me." She whispers, "You'd be fulfilling your dream." She continues, "But I want to be with you, yes it was my dream but dreams change and my dream is to be with you, spend the rest of my fucking life with you Billie." I mumble into her neck, "That's my dream too-" she starts but I cut her off, "No, you don't have to say that because I said it-" I start but now she cuts me off, "Look at me." She says while pulling apart and cupping my cheeks softly while staring into my eyes. I feel myself calm down just by looking at her beautiful face, she lightly strokes my cheek with her thumb and I smile softly while leaning my head more into her palm.
"Y/n, baby I'm not just saying this because I feel like I have to, this, you, our life that we're living now is my dream, I've never been more happier than when I'm on your side. I love you so much and being away from you for a while won't change that, I'll respect and support whatever choice you'll make and I know you always put me first but I don't want you to do that, I want you to put your goals, ambitions, dreams and future first. I'm not here to distract, I'm here to support and love you, to be there and motivate you." She says softly.
"I love you so much." I say with teary eyes, before she could say anything, I lean in connecting our lips in a loving kiss. We pull apart after a few seconds, a smile grows on her face and I can't help but also simile. We were arguing minutes ago and now we're smiling and shit. "I love you too." She says and her hands move to cup my cheeks, pulling me in and our lips meet in the middle, the kiss is filled with love and I can't help but smile into the kiss.
She pulls apart while also smiling, I lean my forehead against hers and we stare into each other's eyes. "Thank you for always supporting me baby, I'll always be there for you and I'm sorry for not telling you." I apologize again, "It's alright baby." She assures me, I nod and wrap my arms around her, pulling her into a warm hug. We stay in each other's arms for a good minute, enjoying each other's company.
"I should go apologize." I say softly and she nods in agreement before pulling away. I kiss Billie's lips before walking out of the hotel room and down the hallway to my sister's hotel room. I knock and take a deep breath in. The door opens, "Can I come in?" I ask and she nods while opening the door wider, letting me in.
"I'm sorry, I acted like a complete dick, I was stressed and I overreacted, I'm sorry. You didn't deserve that, you were trying to help and I appreciate it, I'm sorry." I ramble out while standing in front of her awkwardly, she laughs at my awkwardness and pulls me into a hug, "It's alright you dork." She jokes while smiling. "And yeah you're right, you are a complete dick." She teases while pulling away, I smile at her.
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Fanfiction"What do you think of Billie Eilish?" Someone asks and usually, I wouldn't answer but I can't just not answer this one. "She's an icon, duh." I say while looking straight into the camera.
