only you-Billie Eilish

Chapter 35

"I'll let you talk to her then, I'm sorry for interrupting." He says and i nod but before he leaves he hands me his blazer, "Here take this, it's freezing." He says and with that he walks off. "Before you say anything-" I start but she cuts me off, "Diner with some friends huh." She mimics, "Yup Billie, if you didn't know he's still a friend of mine." I state, "Well then go be with your little boyfriend." She snaps back and hangs up on me, god she's so dramatic.

I sigh while rubbing my face with the palm of my hand, what am I to do? Jacob is only being nice to me, we're platonic friends and I mean, I know that Billie must feel uncomfortable with him being around but she's acting childishly, I've never done anything to break her trust, I'm not the one who cheated, I shake my head. No stop Y/n, stop using the past against her...

What happened, happened, she learned from her faults, stop using it to push her away, stop trying to find something to use against her. I sigh and fix myself up while opening the door and walking back to my friends, "Everything good?" Kendall asks and I nod while looking down, she nods and lets it go, sensing that I don't want to talk about it.

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"She's already asleep." Patrick says while hugging me, I nod while hugging him back, I pull away and rub my eyes, "Thanks for picking me up." I thank him, "No problem it was on our way." He assured me, I nod while smiling at him, "Go to sleep now, it's late and we have a long drive ahead of us, Billie's in this bunk." He informs me while pointing at it, I nod while thanking him, I open the curtain, reliving a sleeping Billie, she looks so adorable all snuggled up.

I get in and kick my shoes off while laying down next to her, I close my eyes and think about Billie and I, we haven't really been on good terms for the past few days, neither of us could put up with our stubbornness and apologize and still here I am, lying next to her. Is she mad at me? Does she want me to be with her? Should I sleep on the couch? I sigh while rubbing my eyes, I wish things would be easier, not only for me but for the both of us.

I love her so much, sometimes I think about us and the only thing that pops up in my mind if, chaotic but perfect, it's not always easy for us, we went through A LOT and still here we are, together again, I might've forgotten how good it felt to be by her side, I forgot the feeling when I saw her smile for the first time, that smile is everything to me, she means everything to me, I feel it in my bones, she's the one and I'm never gonna let go, I'd do anything for her, anything.

I turn around and wrap my arms loosely around her body while placing a soft kiss on the top of her head, she snuggles her head into me and I whisper a quiet 'I love you' to her and let myself drift of to sleep, let's see how my first night sleeping in a bus will turn out. I wake up to soft kisses being placed all over my face, I smile tiredly and open my eyes but I quickly close them again, the light being to much for my sensitive eyes, I rub my eyes, "I love waking up like this." I whisper while opening my eyes, Billie's straddling me, how can she even sit straight in this little bunk? Maybe because she's tiny? Makes sense.

"And I love waking you up like this." She says and continues kissing all over my face, I pout as she hovers over my lips but skips them, she rolls her eyes at me and kisses the pout of my lips, I smile softly at her, "When did you get here?" She asks while bending down and snuggling her head into my neck, I stroke her back lightly, "My plane landed around 2am so around 3 or 4 am" I reply, she nods, "Why didn't you wake me up?" Billie asks softly, "You looked way too adorable." I tease, I can feel her smile against my skin.

"I missed you." I whisper, "I missed you too baby" she replies softly while leaning up a little bit and connecting our lips in a soft comforting kiss, I wrap my arms around her lower back and sit up a little bit, "I love you." I mumble into the kiss, she leans up and smile down at me, "I love you too." She states softly while her blue ocean eyes are staring into my soul.