only you-Billie Eilish

Chapter 19

"There's nothing fucking there anymore." I say without showing any emotions, good I really am an amazing actress. "Nothing fucking there!" I repeat and my heart aches as these words leave my lips moments ago but I take a deep shaky breath in, trying to hold back tears. Her head keeps ticking to the side but I couldn't care less right now, I turn around and walk off without looking back.

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"Cut!" The director shouts and as these words leave his mouth, Zendaya and I burst out laughing. I groan trying to catch my breath while still laughing. She rolls over so she's on top of me, still laughing hysterically into my neck, "Woah, girls we have to finish up the scene." The director reminds us and we start calming down and I push her of me, instead of losing her grip on me she pulls me with her and we fall onto the hard floor and once again we burst out laughing, god I missed this, socializing and all, corona really fucked everything up.

I'm currently at the set of EUPHORIA, exciting! right? The past year was pretty good for me, I focused on myself and archived everything I wanted. Corona did mess up some things for me but alright. We're currently filming the second season of euphoria, thank god they needed some new characters and THEY reached out for ME, the second James told me they wanted me I freaked out, this is like a dream come true.

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"You did so good." Alexa says while hugging me, "Thanks babe." I say while smiling at her before we walk out hand in hand as we make some small talk. We enter my car and I drive off, "Bro, you hungry?" I ask and she gives me an 'are you dumb?' look, "We both know I'm always hungry." She says and i let a quite laugh out before nodding. She for real is always hungry, like the first time we hung out at hers, she was eating the whole time, like she had always something to snack.

"Where do you wanna go?" I ask looking over at her, "Hmm, how about YOU cook for me." She says with a smile and I roll my eyes, knowing that I'll have to cook a whole ass meal for her. "I shouldn't have told you I can cook." I whisper under my breath, "What was that?" She asks teasingly and I sigh, "nothing." I reply while smiling, "Call Zendaya and the others, maybe they'll like to join." I say and she nods, humming in response.

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"We have to make a quick stop." I say and she nods, "Groceries?" She asks and I nod, "Don't you have food at home?" She asks in a duh tone, "Yeah bitch but maybe not for a whole group, I live alone." I say with the same attitude, but still smiling at her. "Right, I forgot you live in a HUGE mansion all alone." She teases and I roll my eyes at her. "That's mean." I reply and she rolls her eyes, "And besides I like being alone." I continue and she gives me a look and I roll my eyes.

We stop and get out of the car. I smile at Alexa while putting my mask on, she does the same and we enter the grocery store. "Zendaya is a vegetarian so we'll have to get along with that." She says while looking through the veggies, "Yeah I know, that's no issue tho, I used to cook vegan." I inform her and she gives me a questioning look.

"Yeah I had a friend, we were really close and we basically spend a lot of time together so I had to adjust." I explain and she nods, there's a long silence so I decided to speak up again "It was Billie, Billie Eilish." I inform her and she nods, "Oh-how did you kn-" she starts but I cut her off,  "I'm just built different." I joke and she hits my arm playfully.

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"This pasta is delicious." Zendaya compliments and Jacob nods in agreement, "Yeah I didn't know you are a chef cook." Hunter adds and I smile at her, "You don't know a lot about me" I say "The first time I heard you'll be joining our cast, I was scarred." Jacob says honestly and I give him a confused look, "I saw you beating some guy's ass up." He says and i let a quite 'oh' out and shift uncomfortable in my seat but speak up again, "You were at Denzel's party?" I ask and he nods, "I didn't even know Denzel or any of the people there, I went with a girl I met in a bar." He explains and i nod.