only you-Billie Eilish

Chapter 16

"Don't you love me anymore?" She asks her voice breaking at the end, what? I turn around as tears fill my eyes. "Why would you think that?" I ask shocked as her eyes fill with tears and she looks down. "Answer me." She whispers while looking up at me again, the tears now spilling out of her eyes, fuck what did I do?

I take a set next to her and turn to look at her, she's wiping her tears away and I sigh. "Of course, I love you Billie." I whisper while looking at her and she looks up at me with a relieved look on her face. Without saying another word I pull her towards me and she wraps her arms around me so I pull her onto  my lap as she hides her face into my neck. God I'm so stupid, she thought I stopped loving her. I caress her back slightly, trying my best to comfort her.

I could never stop loving her, she's the one for me. After a while it starts getting colder and colder and I'm sure it's 1 am by now. "Why would you even think that?" I ask softly and she looks up at me with teary eyes, I really hurt her. I'm such an idiot, how the hell could I make this beautiful caring soul think that I don't love her anymore. "You were so distanced these past weeks and today you didn't even come into my green room. I-I was waiting for you but you never came." She explains while looking down, oh...

"Billie baby, I'm so sorry. It just has been a lot on me these past weeks... The new movie and everyone's expecting so much from me and I-I can't let them down." I explain sadly while looking down at her and she nods, "I get it Y/n." She mumbles but I can tell she still has something else on her mind, "and?" I ask and she gives me a confused look, "I know there's more." I whisper and she sighs while nodding.

"But ehm-m you still are in a relationship, I don't want to sound selfish but I really miss you, us... I really fucking miss us and if work is more important then our relationship maybe we should-" she says but I cut her off. "No." I disagree while shaking my head, "but-" she starts and once again I cut her off while shaking my head no.

"We're not gonna break up." I mumble while tears start forming in my eyes, come on. I know I fucked up but I can fix this, I want to fix this, no, no I NEED to fix this. "Maybe a break?" She asks and I shake my head no, please no. "Do YOU still love me?" I whisper while looking away, observing the cars that are passing the street every once in a while.

I hear her huff and I can feel hands cup my face, making me look at her. "Y/n are you stupid?" She asks while slightly raising her voice and I give her a confused look while nodding. I am stupid so the least thing I can do is agree right? She shakes her head no while hugging me, "You're such a dumbass sometimes." She mumbles into my shoulder and I let a quite laugh out. "You still haven't answered my question." I mumble and she sighs while pulling away and shaking her head.

"Of course I fucking love you, how am I supposed to stop loving you?" She asks and a small smile spreads across my face. "You're the most kind and caring person I have ever met, you always find a way to lighten up my mood. The second you walk into the room, all eyes are on you, everyone loves you so Y/n tell me, how am I supposed to stop loving you?" She asks softly and by now tears have begun streaming down my face. She wipes them away with her thumb and leans in and I close my eyes, god I really love her.

"Wanna go inside?" I ask, once we pull apart and she nods so I stand up with Billie in my arms, she tightens her grip on my shoulders and wraps her legs around my waist as my hands move to the back of her thighs so I can carry her inside. I lock the door behind us and walk into the living room, sitting us onto the couch. "I'll take a week off." I say and she shoots her head up, "but what about your movie?" She asks and I shake my head, "I don't care, they'll figure something out." I say and a huge smile appears on her lips.