Back Together?- A Different Time Means Different Circumstances

Chapter 17- Please Come Back to me

Callies Pov

Although I found her crying, the night was wonderful. It was the first night that we've done anything romantic since we got back together. I could tell that all of the pregnancy symptoms were hitting her hard. She's had been so insecure about herself- not that she's expressed it, I can tell though. She wouldn't let me touch her belly because she's embarrassed of how big it is, but today, I finally got to feel my baby girl moving around. I felt a little bit of Arizona's super magic shining through all of her sadness too. She fell asleep in my arms again tonight. Having her next to me while I sleep makes me feel safe and happy, I think it makes her feel the same way too.

The next day....

To my disappointment, Arizona was back to her newfound normal. Depressed, barely talking, barley leaving the bedroom, uneager to leave the house. She tried to be excited for our next chapter, I could tell, but she's been having a hard time ever since her rapist smacked her butt. Apparently the bath helped but only for the night. I still held her tight as we woke up but she didn't express that she enjoyed my embrace, I know she did though because I know my Arizona. As I hold her, I think about the past seven months. I can't believe that she is already 7 months pregnant, Sofia is so excited. I wish that Arizona would engage more with Sofia especially about this, but I know that she'll be okay eventually. I just really hope that when she is born, Arizona will come out of this. Honestly, I don't think she will. She doesn't say anything about being excited, and she didn't help with the nursery at all. She barely even looked at it which is so out of character for her. All of the sudden, I snapped back into reality.

"Arizona, your appointment is today, let me help you get ready, but go shower first" I whispered to her. She sat up on the bed, but didn't get up. She just sighed, and then after that she got up. She got a towel and some clothes but stoped in the door frame and turned around a little bit. She wasn't looking at me, but it was clear that she was about to talk to me.

"Callie- uh, can you... he- help me?" She asked. She clearly felt so insecure, but she doesn't realize the really, she looks beautiful as ever.

I smiled widely, "sure" I responded happily. As I got up, I saw her smiling at her feet a little bit and then walking into the bathroom to start to unbutton her shirt.

I walked in and helped her take off the shirt even though she could do that perfectly fine. She took off her pants and the stopped and looked at me embarrassed. "I-uh... I can't really do the rest" she said while looking me blankly in the eyes.

"Okay" I whispered.

I walked over to her and the unclipped her bra in the back, but she didn't take it off. I was confused, but when I walked by to the front of her I realized that she was crying. It was such an awkward situation but I have to help her. I pretended that I didn't notice the tears falling down her face, and turned on the shower. When it warmed up I took her hand and we got in. I made eye contact and this time made it clear that I noticed her crying. I stood behind her and hugged her body and water ran over us.

"Hey, hey, beautiful, what's wrong?" I asked softly. Our master bathroom seemed to be her safe spot. I started stroking her hair and combing through it with my fingers to her saturate it with water.

"The world is so screwed up. We were supposed to have another baby, and we were excited and then I miscarried.... And we broke up, and then I come here expecting to co parent with you, but now we're having another baby together because I was raped again. And I'm not even upset, I'm just confused that the world is so screwed up that it took away our baby but gave us a rapists through me." She said. Well actually, she ranted. She was expressing herself with her hand movements, and she was talking clearly. I stayed behind her and gently lifted her belly to take the weight off when she stopped talking. She sighed in relief and leaned on me.

I continued to hold her belly and responded "I know beautiful, I know." Eventually, I put her belly down gently. She didn't say anything but I know she was probably hoping it would last a bit longer. I used both of my hands to help her wash her hair and then I turned off the shower and handed her a towel while I wrapped myself in one too. She's just so perfect, I wish she could see that too.