anemoia || a maze runner fanfiction (Newt x reader // Minho x reader)

chapter twenty-nine | 𝒃𝒆𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒚𝒂𝒍 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒓𝒖𝒔𝒕

Today it was your turn to look after Alby. The boy laid in a slight unconsciousness, sometimes he would ask after some water, but then he fell right back asleep as soon as he took a small sip. You felt as hopeless as you did when Teresa was in a coma, all you were able to do was to sit beside the bed, waiting for your patient to eventually get better or die - of course you preferred the first option. You sighted as you dabbed some sweat on Alby's forehead away with a cloth, it was the least you could do.

Jeff and Clint now and then looked inside the Med-hut to see if everything was okay or if you needed something, you always shook your head. You wouldn't particularly say that you wanted to be alone, but you felt too exhausted to talk to someone right now. The guilt you felt towards Newt and Minho ate you up, choked you and stabbed you in the chest without any mercy. Every time you remembered the moment Minho and Newt understood the whole situation, you shook your head, trying to shake the memory away and forget everything. All this time in the Glade you had longed to remember, now you just wanted to forget.

"I don't know what to do" you said to Alby as if he could hear you. "Hank advised me to explain everything to them, but what is there really to explain? And even if they are able to forgive me, I'm not sure if I'm able to forgive myself. Both of them are such wonderful people who've decided to come into my life and I've hurt them, both of them. I don't want to lose them. To be honest, Alby, losing them is my worst nightmare. They're everything I have besides Hank." you continued and buried your face in the palms of your hands.

Suddenly Alby began to rumble, shaking his head from one side to the other, squeezing his eyes shut. You stood up and carefully placed your hands around his head to keep it steady, so that he wouldn't hurt himself. "I'm sorry Alby, you're right, I'm unbearable" you whispered with a slight chuckle. Alby started to stop shaking his head and seemed to calm down. You took your seat back on the small stool next to the bed and watched him carefully.

His breathing was flat and small drops of sweat formed on his forehead, which you quickly wiped away with the cloth again. You assumed that his body tried to cope with the injection the others gave him. You asked yourself what you would have done if you had been with them. Would have you allowed Alby to be injected with a syringe nobody knew the content of? But otherwise he would certainly have died, so there was nothing to lose. You were no doctor. That was something you always needed to remind yourself as a Med-jack. If something goes wrong, it is not your fault.

Then suddenly Alby opened his eyes. You instantly reached for the glass of water to hand it to him, as he only woke up to drink something until now. However, to your surprise Alby sat up this time, looking at you with tired eyes. You wanted to pass him the glass of water, but he shook his head no. Then he swayed his legs over the edge of the bed in order to sit better. He supported his upper body with his arms to not fall over. You carefully placed a hand on his broad shoulder. "I will get Clint, is that okay?" you asked in a low voice.

Alby nodded and you made your way out of the room. "I will be right back" you assured him before you left the room. You quickly found Clint and even Jeff sitting at one of the tables of the Homestead, eating their dinner, which was mashed potatoes with some meat on the side. "He's awake" you announced and both looked up from their plates. "He just woke up" you added and Clint stood up "Thank you, Y/n" he said as he now started to walk towards the Med-hut.

"I will get the others" Jeff announced, before you also walked back to the Med-hut. A shiver went down your spine. The 'others' certainly also meant Minho or at least Newt, as Minho just arrived back from the maze. But there was no time to think about these kinds of things. You speed-walked back into the small room which resembled the Med-hut. Clint passed Alby a glass of water with herbs in it. You guessed it to be Ginseng and Sage, both herbs were known to boost someone's energy and right now Alby seemed to be more than exhausted.