Our Song

Chapter Seventeen

Chapter Seventeen

Regret

Namangha ako nang makita ang loob ng penthouse ni Wesley. I didn't know that he's living in such a luxurious home. Pero kung iisipin ay malaki na rin ang kinita niya sa pagiging kilalang international singer. Aasahan mo na nga siguro na sa ganitong klase ng bahay siya nakatira. I smiled as I felt proud of Wesley for his achievements. I turned to him who was behind me as he showed me his place. I hugged him which he returned by his affectionate embrace.

Wesley carried me up in his arms and brought me to his bedroom upstairs. It's one of the days when we finished early at the recording studio and I'd ride with Wesley in his expensive car. Iniwan lang namin ang kotse na ginagamit ko sa parking ng istasyon at babalikan ko rin iyon mamaya. Ngayon dinala niya ako sa tirahan niya.

"I regret leaving you..."

"It's my fault. I left you during the time when you were still depending on me. I knew that more than anyone else I was the only one whom you can lean on. If I was just more patient then. I should've given you more time. I should've waited, too." he said as if he wanted to go back and change things in the past.

But it's all done now.

Regret is always at the end.

I met Wesley's eyes. "You shouldn't... because you've reached your dream..." I said as I smiled faintly.

"Isn't all of these are worth it...?" marahan kong tanong sa kaniya.

After thinking about everything that had happened in the past... I also realized some things... I realized my shortcomings... and mistakes. I had the choice back then. Like what Tita Joyce said, I can stay with her at that time. I didn't really have to leave and go to my father. But maybe the truth was I just did it out of rebellion... I wanted to rebel against Wesley. Gusto kong pangatawanan iyong sinabi ko sa kaniya na wala na siyang babalikan... But after everything I'm here in this position now. I'm still in love with Wesley Rivera.

"It's worth it..." he answered. "But it's not enough. It will never be enough without you. Everything in my life would always be lacking without you in it, Aryanne."

I can feel hot tears forming in my eyes and my heart thumping with pain.

I breathed quietly and tried to calm myself down. "How about Savannah...?"

"Yeah? What about her?"

"Akala ko noon may kung ano na sa inyo..."

"There's nothing between me and Savannah, Aryanne. It was just all for work." he clarified.

I smiled with my lips closed. "Eh, iyong mga babae na nakilala mo abroad?"

"Hmm? There's none, Aryanne."

Bahagya akong umangat para makita ang mukha niya. "Really?" I asked with doubt in my head. Impossible! It was still 8 years! At maraming pwedeng mangyari sa maraming taon ding iyon! "It's okay, Wesley. Hindi naman ako magagalit."

"But I'm telling you the truth, Aryanne. All those years... there's no one else but just you. Since then until now it's only you, Aryanne. Do you really think I can look at other girls the same way I look at you?"

Nagkatinginan kami ni Wesley. Alam kong nawala na agad ang mga pagdududa ko. I believe him. Some things may change through time and some things will remain the same. Like our love for each other and Wesley's honest eyes whenever he looks at me.

We cuddled in bed after making love. I knew I was doing wrong every time I think about Art... But I can't stop myself from being with Wesley. Masaya ako kapag kasama ko siya. Pakiramdam ko ay nabalik na sa akin iyong nawala ko noon. The past years I was just trying to survive. Right now I've been feeling so alive. I didn't anymore feel like living was just a mere survival.