Mariahs POV
Things with me and Aniya are getting better, yes, but I think I'm still thinking about breaking up with her. I don't know I still just don't feel as if there is an actual strong connection between us anymore. At all. And like I said before, I had only felt that strong connection and spark with Page. I love Aniya, just... not like that anymore.
I still haven't figured out what day and how I'm going to break up with her. I'm definitely going in person, but... I'm nervous. But I just can't keep lying to her like this. And I can't be in a relationship with someone I don't love.
I think I might do it today, when we hang out. I had told Page I'm going to hang out with her for a little while until I finally get the courage to break up with her. And she's completely fine with it, surprisingly.
Meanwhile, me and Page are in her car in the morning because I had stayed overnight.
"Okay, ready?'' She asks, reaching for her backpack in the backseat.
I look at her in awe as she's reaching for her backpack, but then quickly focus. "Right, yeah. But...''
"But what?''
I struggle trying to find the right words to say. "I uhm. I think I'm going to break up with her today."
She gives me a shocked expression. "Oh?"
"Yeah... or do you think its too soon?'' I panicked.
"Hey, no, I don't think its too soon okay? I mean, you and her have been hanging out all week. And she seems pretty happy about it.''
Exactly, I thought. 'She seems pretty happy about it.' That gives me a good reason not to do it today. I'd feel more terrible then I do right now.
"No, I can't do it today. I'll break her heart. Like you said, she seems pretty happy about it. And I can't just break up with her right when she told me she feels alone, and she needs someone. I'll feel terrible afterward. God, why is this so hard? I just want to be with you without having to worry of getting caught." I stop and realize that I had let myself ramble. "I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to talk so much I jus-"
"I get it.'' She cut me off. "I understand you'll feel like shit after, but..." she looks to the side. "I still think you should do it."
I just give a a blank stare, then quickly fake a smile. "Okay. I think I might do it. After school. I'll let you know."
She smiled. "Great. Now lets go before were late."
The whole class period I had with Aniya, she was being all handsy, and smiling at me. I hated this because she was so cute, but I really wanted to try and focus on mine and Page's relationship.
After school finally comes around, and I take a deep breath before I go into her room.
Her pink, plump lips turned into a adorable smile, making me almost melt. But I tried to stay focused.
She stands up coming over to me. "Hey beautiful.'' She says before kissing me. I fall into it for a good second, but then pull away, faking a smile for a split second, then turn back to my saddened expression.
"What, what's wrong?'' She says with a slight smile on her face.
I almost cry at the thought of telling her.
"Aniya," my lip trembles. "We should- we should talk.''
Her smiles leaves her lips, and she forms a worried look on her face. "Wh- about what, exactly?
I urge her to sit down with me, and she sits down quickly.
A tear rolls down my face, slowly. "I- I've been thinking recently, and...''
Tears begin to fill up her eyes, and she's trying not to blink to make them fall. "Wait..."
"I don't think this relationship is working."
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"Our Secret"
AléatoireMariah Anderson, a junior, who just started her first day of school. She thought it was going to be a great year, and she was going to have so much fun. Until she met her science teacher, Aniya Parker. Aniya Parker, former science teacher. She work...
