Red

Chapter Twenty Seven

*Third persons POV*

It was dark out, the sun had gone down, the moon begun to rise, and the stars were waking up. Ivy laid there in the darkness wondering if this was right. She was ready for death, yet she was spared. Why? She thought what was the point to her living if she was only going to be in pain.

Ivy slowly started to wake up, she was still tired but her body had other ideas, and she was getting hungry. She tried to move but couldn't, her body felt heavy, so she slowly opened her eyes and looked around the room and realized she wasnt alone.

Her mates were still alseep holding onto her like she might disappear. To tell the truth if she had her way she wouldn't still be here. So she laid there and thought, is this a dream? It must be or could they really want me? She was so confused because of everything that has happened. It was one thing after another.

She looked at each one of there sleeping faces and studied how peaceful but a little worried they looked. She still couldn't believe what all has happened in the last few weeks since she met them. Her life was turned upside down, and now not knowing what to do.

She remembers everything that happened at the lake. She didnt know what to really think because of everything that has happened. The moon goddess took her marks away from her for good reason. So of course she was mad and sad. But in return she gave her the option to decide who she wanted to be marked by. Which made her feel happy for a few reasons, because she could still be marked, but by her choice and not forced upon her. The moon goddess gave her that gift because of who she is.

She was still mad at her mates because they wouldn't listen to her. She felt betrayed because all they did was get mad and blamed her for what happened. Even before she could explain anything that had happened. She was mad because It took the moon goddess to tell them what happened for them to calm down and to understand what had happened. It shouldn't be like that! They should have listened to her side of the story before they threw blame. she thought maybe she was better off with out them and to disappear. But what good would that be?

One part of her thinks that she should run away from all four of her mates. Not giving a chance to any of them, she thought what would be the point. But what good would it be if she ran away anyway. She would just be running from her destiny, she knew that she couldn't run away from that.

Another part of her thinks that she should give her three good mates a chance to prove themselves to her. She wanted that security, the love that she had always wanted. But...in a way she feels she doesn't deserve it because of who she is.

Then their is a small part of her that wants Nick her evil mate. That small part of her wants to end it all, because she is tired of fighting. She just wants to give up and let it all go.

She was so confused about everything. Her thoughts were bouncing everywhere in her mind. She needed more time to think, to figure everything out. She thought why was everything so hard? Why did it have to happen to her? Had she not gone threw enough already? Had she not suffered enough? She sighed deeply which caused the boys to stir and to start waking up.

*Ivy's POV*

I sighed deeply which caused the boys to start waking up. Crap, I dont know what to say to them, im not ready to talk to them yet about everything. What do I do now? Everything is so messed up right now, why does it have to be so hard?

I looked down and saw Hunter looking up at me with a small smile, Chris still had his eyes closed smiling, and Leo nuzzled my neck smelling my sent. "I would say goodmorning but its night time." I said with a small smile.

They didnt move....... didnt say anything....... just smiled. It was almost like they were afraid to say anything, or say the wrong thing. My stomach growled lowly, which caused them to giggle, great, that was embarrassing. "I have to pee, can you three get off me now?" I asked quietly.