I Don't Want To Feel Better- [Glamrock FreddyxGlamrock BonniexMonty]

Chapter 7 Coming clean

Monty woke up with his head hurting, remembering what happened last night has soon has he saw the rabbit naked besides him. Bonnie had already woken up and was now getting dressed, that's when he noticed the other's state.

Bonnie: You good dude?

Monty: Yeah... You got something for headache's?

Bonnie: Yeah sure, I'll get it in a second, just... Don't tell anyone other then Roxy, who heard the whole thing, what happened last night.- he said before going to his bag taking a bottle of pills.

Monty: My lips are sealed.

Bonnie: Have two.- they said handing the other the bottle, Monty taking the amount the other said- By the way I haven't forgotten what you said, you're going to explain it to me, but for now, we need to get ready and hit the road.- they said before leaving the tent, leaving the other to think.

Monty: Fuck.- he groaned into the pillow- I guess horniness exposes secrets.

**
The rabbit stood outside, stretching his arms and looking around. Everyone else was already up and eating breakfast, it being cereals.

I hope Freddy didn't hear us last night.... Even if I can't say it, I love him I don't want to lose him because I hate fucked Monty...

The bassist made their way up to where everyone else stood, Roxy and Chica stopping whispering to each other once they saw him.

Bonnie: Morning... How's gonna be tonight's show?- he asked seating besides everyone and getting some cereals to eat.

Chica: Probs the usual, although after show we are going to have to drive all the way to the next city and even there we can't stop it's still far away from where we are going.

Bonnie: So where and when are we sleeping?

Chica: We'll sleep in shifts, besides Gregory who can sleep all night if he wants to and we're either sleeping in the car or in a random forest... That's why we need to sleep in shifts actually.

Bonnie: Couldn't we get a gig closer to where we are?

Freddy:We are lucky we are getting gigs, so just take what we have and be grateful...

Once Bonnie finished eating they moved over to their tent, seeing the alligator leaving, noticing how behind the sunglasses, his pupils were extremely dilated.

He's high again... I'm loosing my paciente with him, he better tell me what's happening, otherwise I will have to go to Freddy about this.

He thought has he got the stuff and put it in the car, meeting Roxy and Chica half way there. Bonnie sighed when he looked at them.

Bonnie: I know you two don't keep anything from one and the other so I'm assuming Chica also knows me and Monty fucked.

Roxy: Yeah sorry about that.

Bonnie: It's fine just- he sighed before speaking once more- Don't tell Freddy. I really like him and I don't know this feels like it will fuck it up.

Chica: Why did you even have sex? Like you barely get along.

Bonnie: Well he was getting in my nerves cuz his tail is always on my fucking side of the tent and I get back to me already on top of him asking him if he liked me invading his personal space... Which he said yes to and things escalated. Oh that brings me to the point! He said he was going to explain the track marcks.

Roxy: Ayo, I feel like you skipped a few steps, why does he suddenly trust you?

Bonnie: Honestly I'm not sure he thrust's me has much has he fears that I might get him out of the band.

Chica: Oh by the way Bon, yesterday you couldn't ride with Freddy cuz of your back pain, but you two really need to talk.

Bonnie: This is just getting better and better.- he said sarcastically.

**
It had been 10 minutes since they had started driving and Bonnie was still trying to understand if his back pain was worse then the absolute state of silence and anxiety on the air. Freddy, thinking it had been enough time in silence, took a deep breath before speaking.

Freddy: How do you really feel about us? About whatever we are?

Bonnie: Oh c'mon Freddy, I like us, I like you.

Freddy: Then say it.- he said, his eyes glued on the road the other looking at him confused.

Bonnie: I just did.

Freddy: Don't pretend to not know what I'm talking about, say it. Say the word you've been avoiding.

Bonnie: I can't! Alright?! I can't! I feel it for you, you make me feel like no one else! You make me feel different, you make me feel special, you make me feel whole, you make me feel safe, you make me feel good!! But I can't say it! And I wish I could say it! And I don't understand why but I just can't!!

Freddy: Then I can't tell you what we are. Bonnie I love you, but if you can't say it back I can't move forward with this relationship, even if  we want to... I think we should just stay friends... Friends with benefit...

Bonnie: I completely understand that.- he said holding his tears.

I fucked it up, I fucked it up so bad, why can't I say it!? I want to say it! I want something more, I want a relationship, why can't I say it?!

He asked himself has he turned his head outside, tears running down his face, him doing the best he could so the other wouldn't see him in that state. But the bear noticed what he was doing, putting a hand on his shoulder, the other hand still on the wheel.

Bonnie: Don't pity me.- the smaller said, taking the other's hand off his shoulder- Just, please stop on that gas station I need to go to the bathroom.

The vocalist did so, the other car also stopping on the gas station, Bonnie imidiatly going into the bathroom, entering a stall and just standing there, sobbing, thinking how his inability to say a single phrase was ruining his relationship and in turn his life. He sobbed until he heard the door of the bathroom being slammed open, him quickly getting quiet, hopping the person wouldn't notice his presence, in which they didn't, has they started ranting.

Monty: Fuck, fuck, fuck, not enough , not enough!- he said has he paced around.

What's Monty even talking about?

He thought before hearing a sniffing sound, Monty continuing to pace around after doing so.

Monty: Fuck, Bonnie knows! He already fucking knows! I'm gonna get kidded out! I'm gonna lose the only good thing in my life since I left home! Just argh!- he said then suddenly the rabbit hearing something slam against the wall, assuming it was his hand- Why?! Why did I thought it was a good idea let him fuck me?! Cuz I was sobering up and needed something to keep the suicidal thoughts away?!? Why did I do that?!! I'm so stupid!! Now he's gonna tell everyone I'm an addict!!!- the smaller opened the door, the other's attention going to him, his pupils were dilated his hand scratched and already bruised from hitting the concrete wall.

Bonnie: Depends are you an addict?

To be continued...

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