I Don't Want To Feel Better- [Glamrock FreddyxGlamrock BonniexMonty]

Chapter 9 Trembling

The alligator jolted awake in a cold sweat, waking up Freddy who was besides them. They sat there, heavy breathing, trying to calm himself down.

Freddy: Are you alright?- he asked worried also seating up, the other moving their hair out their face.

Monty: Yeah... Just a nightmare....- the taller finally looked around recalling last night.

Freddy: So yesterday... We had sex?

Monty: No... If I recall correctly it was just a hand job... Although I was to wasted to be sure.

Freddy: So was I... God I need to tell Bon about this...- he stated a bit down.

Monty: What are you two? I still don't know.

Freddy: We're friend's... Although I really love him.

Monty: Sorry for last night then...

Freddy: It's fine, besides technically speaking I'm still single... Thanks for last night tho, I really liked it.- he said before kissing the other's forehead and leaving the other by himself. The bassist got dressed before leaving the tent,once outside he was met with the other's, Bonnie going over him, both of them slightly farther away from everyone.

Bonnie: Holy shit are you alright?- he asked, noticing the other's tremor's.

Monty: I'm starving, I'm exhausted, I'm shaking and having cravings, do I look fine to you?!

Bonnie: Sorry, sorry, I should've known. Good thing it's only 7 to 10 days for the withdrawals.

Monty: Do you think it's going to be just a week?! Bonnie, I've been addicted to this for years it's taking at least a few weeks to get it completely out of my system!

Bonnie: Geez man, chill.- the taller groaned before quickly changing the subject.

Monty: So, you and Freddy, Freddy and you, how the fuck is that going?

Bonnie: Like hell.

Monty: Tell me more.

Bonnie: No.

Monty: Bro, I've told you all of my backstory, all of my struggles and I'm quitting coke, I need a distraction, so humor me and tell what's going on bettewen you two.- the rabbit sighed, pinching their brows before responding.

Bonnie: Do note I'm only telling you this cuz I'm putting you through hell with staying clean.

Monty: I literally don't give a fuck just spit it out.

Bonnie: Freddy loves me and I feel the same way for him I just... I can't say it. I can't say it and it's so frustrating cuz I want something more but I can't even say my feeling's and Freddy won't take that.

Monty: I mean he's got a point...

Bonnie: I know I just, why can't I say it?!

Monty: You got a fear of intimacy.

Bonnie: I what now?! Why are you saying that?!

Monty: I mean it's evident by the way we fucked before. You had me flipped over, no eye contact, no kisses, no nothing. You just took out anything that could feel more intimate, hell I didn't even see your face. If you can't even look someone in the eyes while you having meaningless sex, why would you be able to say I love you?- the smaller looked dumbfounded by the explanation, wondering why it made sense.

Bonnie:I- the fuck?! How did you get all of that from one time?!

Monty: Listen man, I've been around, I do realize some things.

Bonnie: Well you got any idea how to get over it?! Cuz I want to tell my feeling's to Freddy.

Monty: Start by small things, like his eyes, the way he talks, his smile, other body parts that you might love about him and build up from there... Telling someone you love them all is more difficult then all of this.

Bonnie: You know what? I'll try it. Thanks.

Monty: You're welcome... Although I could use some coke has form of thanking.- the other chuckled before answering.

Bonnie: Go fuck yourself man.

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Freddy drove the car, the rabbit on the co driver's seat and Monty laid on the back already asleep. The vocalist felt guilty about last night's encounter and decided to go clean with it.

Freddy: Me and Monty hooked up last night.- they spit out, expecting the worse reaction possible, the bassist chuckling.

Bonnie: Rockstar, don't worry I also had sex with him.

Freddy: Oh shit, you two?! Don't you hate him tho?

Bonnie: Ah, he was getting on my nerves and I kinda hate fucked him... Although I kinda felt bad for it, even if we aren't something.

Freddy: So did I... but I guess it's fine isn't it?

Bonnie: Yeah... He's hot tho, isn't he?

Freddy: Totally.

Monty: Thanks.- they said from the backseat, the other two went quiet, kinda embarrassed they were caught fan girling over them- Ayo keep the compliments going tho I could use an ego boost.- more silence followed, the gator deciding to speak once more- If you don't I will... I probably have more to say to Freddy, cuz you know he didn't flip me over and completely obscured  my vision of him...

Bonnie: Sorry, I thought I'd want to kill you or myself.

Monty: Just one thing Bon, what's the length of that skin graph on your thigh.

Bonnie: Six and a half inches... Why you ask?

Monty: I didn't get a good looked at you just wanted to know your size... Tsk, I'm bigger.

Bonnie: H-how you made the contention?!

Monty: Bro, I'm trans, I'm familiarized with both ftm and mtf top and bottom surgery, even if I didn't get shit.

Bonnie: Wait, you're also trans?!

Monty: Yeah, I'm non-binary... Didn't I said that before?

Freddy: You didn't... What's your pronouns?

Monty: I go by he/they.

Bonnie: Dam the he/they bussy do hit different.

Freddy: What the fuck Bonnie.

Bonnie: Sorry.- they replied giggling.

Freddy: Why are you laughing?

Monty: The man's high, Freddy.

Freddy: Alright,makes sense... Are you alright tho? You've been trembling all road.

Monty: It's fine... I think I just had to much caffeine.

Freddy: Are you sure? Whatever it is you can tell me.

No I can't tell you. You'll kick me out the band. Just... I need it. But I can't..

The alligator shook himself back to reality before answering the bear.

Monty: Yeah... Although the coffee did nothing I'm still exhausted.

Freddy: You should try and sleep then. I'll wake you up when it's your turn to drive... It will be a bit earlier then Bonnie tho, I don't want him to drive high.

Oh honey I've done that so many times now you can't even tell the difference.

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Much love!!

-MissevilXD