I Don't Want To Feel Better- [Glamrock FreddyxGlamrock BonniexMonty]

Chapter 46 Depression

It was mid-day, they had been driving for hours on end and now they were at a gas station, eating and chatting. Freddy had gone to somewhere farther away from the rest, he was eating by himself until the younger bassist went looking for him, finding him by a table and seating besides him.

Monty: Hey, love, why are you by yourself?

Freddy: I really didn't want to be depressive around everyone.

Monty: Why are you feeling like that?- they asked has he bean to rub the other's back.

Freddy: I got a not so good diagnosis from my therapist and I just... With all that's going on I don't want to do the exams to confirm it cuz right now Gregory needs to move around I don't really have time to go do it.

Monty: Freddy, dear, you have to take care of your problem's before you can take care of Gregory.

Freddy: I know.... And I guess it's not just cuz of him. I don't want it to be true...

Monty: Why not?

Freddy: I don't want to believe I have depression. I just... I get up everyday I do everything I can't have depression. I just... I have a loving family and friends I have no reason to be depressed.

Monty: Sometimes you don't need a reason. You just are depressed and it's fine. It might be hard to accept it now, but if you really are depressed, then it's good you know. Therapy will help you a bunch.

Freddy: It's possible I don't just need therapy. My therapist is mentioning the possiblity of me having to go to psychiatrist and have to take medication and... I don't know if I get addicted? What if I become like my ex? What if I hurt Gregory?

Monty: You won't love. Medication isn't evil it won't make you do bad things just cuz... Besides it's regulated, so you don't get addicted... Yeah there's some side effects that are not so great sometimes, but it's better this way... If your therapist is thinking it could help you, then maybe you should think about it. And please go do the tests, you could talk about what to do after you know if you have it.

Freddy: Thanks...- he said before pulling him into a tight hug, when the rabbit went next to him.

Bonnie: Is everything alright, Freddy?

Freddy: Not really but it's a bit better.

Bonnie: I know it isn't much but, you want a hug? Would it help?

Freddy:Yeah.- the rabbit quickly pulled the other into a big tight hug.

Bonnie: I love you Fredbear... No matter what you're going through, I love you and I'm here for you if you ever want to talk about it.

Freddy: Thanks superstar, that means the world to me.-he said pulling away from the hug- Let's get moving now... We have a show to do.

Monty: Alright, let's go.

Not much was said until they got to the car, Monty starting to recognize some roads was left wondering to themselves exactly where they were going.

Monty: Where exactly is out next show? Besides the one tonight.

Bonnie: Go see at the dates... I'm not that sure either.- the alligator read through the text message with dates and venues suddenly seeing the city where it was.

Monty: You gotta be fucking kidding me.

Bonnie: Why? What's wrong?

Monty: It's in my hometown.

Freddy: Your hometown?!

Monty: Yeah.... You think anyone will recognize me? It's a rather small town where everyone knows each other.

Bonnie: Do you want to be recognized?

Monty: I don't know... I guess I have to think about this... Maybe it's time to, you know... Pass by and see if they still live there... Doesn't mean I'm going to reunite but... It's something.

Bonnie: Think about it well, you have the next two days to figure that out.

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It was after the show, Monty just had came finished eating when they noticed Freddy far away from the fire, leaning against his car. The alligator moved next to him before speaking.

Monty: Why do you keep running away?

Freddy: I don't want to eat infront of y'all.- he replied messing with the food in his plate.

Monty: Oh, sorry I shouldn't- the bear interrupted him, has he sat down.

Freddy: It's fine... I was done either way.- he said putting the plate besides him, in the opposite place where Monty now sat. The bassist held his face.

Monty:You seem sad, why's that?

Freddy: The usual... Besides feeling like shit cuz let the same thing happened to me to Gregory... I couldn't protect him.... I'm a horrible dad...- he replied with tears in his eyes.

Monty: Freddy, you really aren't.

Freddy:Yes I am... I lie, I can't protect my kid, I can't get him to respect me, I'm a horrible dad... And I'm a horrible person.

Monty: Hey, love, that's not the truth. You did everything you could to protect him. And you're far from a horrible father! A horrible father wouldn't care about his kid! And you're an amazing person has well!

Freddy: Stop lying Monty....

Monty: I'm not. Besides I can't let you beat yourself down like that! You don't mean what you say and I know why... Freddy you need help. You need help for your depression, you're not thinking clearly I'm.... I'm scared you'll hurt yourself.- the taller gave a small chuckle before speaking again.

Freddy: What if I already did?- the other's eyes widened before he continued.

Monty: What did you do?

Freddy: Damage control...

Monty: Freddy if you're hurting yourself it isn't "damage control".

Freddy: It is if you're trying to not kill yourself.

Monty: It's that bad?

Freddy: Yeah, kinda... Fuck I really should be on something for this shouldn't I?

Monty: Maybe it would be the better for you... I just wish you could've realized that without hurting yourself... Have you cleaned what you did?

Freddy: Looking at it would make me want to do something worse so no...

Monty: Then let me clean it...- they said before opening the car door taking the first aid kit the bear pulling down his pants slightly for the other access it.

Once Monty was done cleaning it, each of them went to their respective tent, the alligator throwing themselves onto their sleeping bag.

Bonnie:Are you alright rockstar?

Monty: Yeah, can't say the same for our boyfriend... He really has to get the help he needs...

Bonnie: Anti depressants it's what you're referring?- the alligator lift up his face to look at their boyfriend who laid back on his phone.

Monty: How did you know that?

Bonnie: He's been considering it for over a month according to Chica.

Monty: I can't believe he's been suffering in silence for that long.

Bonnie: Well at least he's coming through with it and speaking about it now... It's a big breakthrough with him and we shouldn't play that down.- silence followed has the rabbit let go of his phone.

Monty: If you ever felt the way he's right now... Would you tell me?

Bonnie: Yeah... Unlike Freddy I don't feel the need to hide every bad emotion I have....

Monty: Good to know... Can we cuddle? Today was a lot.

Bonnie: Of course rockstar.- has soon has the rabbit said that the other went over to where he was, laying their head on the other's chest before drifting off to sleep.

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Much love!!

-MissevilXD