I Don't Want To Feel Better- [Glamrock FreddyxGlamrock BonniexMonty]

Chapter 12 Helping out

After tonight's dinner Monty played around in the tent with Bonnie, the younger had spent all off that time on the phone, but it still didn't help much. They were just laying there, looking up, trying to not cry again, Bonnie feeling bad for making him quit his substance's, Monty definitely wasn't prepared for the amount of suicidal thoughts that made it into their brain.

Bonnie: Wanna talk?

Monty: Bon don't worry, go to sleep.- the rabbit sat before replying.

Bonnie: I have some time before my pain meds kick in and I can actually sleep, let's talk. I might not be has good has Freddy but it's something.

Monty: Talk about what? How I'm miserable because you are threatening me that you'll tell them if I don't get sober?! Cuz all of my problems right are because I'm sober!

Bonnie: Monty, I know you want to sober up, or do you like having to destroy your body? Or even better you like almost overdosing to get high?!

Monty: Those are my choices!! Besides you only want to see me fail!

Bonnie: I don't!- the alligator sat and looked him in eyes.

Monty: Bonnie don't you lie to me.- the other broke eyes contact before sighing.

Bonnie: Alright! Maybe at first I wanted you to fail! Maybe at first I just wanted you out of the band but now?! Now that I know your intentions? Now that I know how much you are trying, how much you care? Now I don't want you to fail. You've proven yourself to be a great band member or even friend... I don't wanna lose that if you fail.

Monty: Well that makes one routing for me! Yeah I feel so happy.- they replied sarcastically.

Bonnie: Why don't you believe you can do it??

Monty: Cuz I've tried to do it! When I was in rehab it wasn't just for heroin alright?! But once I came out I got back onto coke. I need it to function.

Bonnie: No you don't. Look at you, you are functioning!

Monty: That doesn't mean it's pleasant! I can't stop thinking about death, I can't stop thinking about how I've been a burden to everyone who has ever cared about, I can't stop thinking how I've ruined everything good in my life, I can't stop thinking that I'm undeserving of love and I can't stop thinking on how everyone hates me!!- they snapped, tears rolling down his face once he was finally honest, the other standing there not sure how to respond, but doing his best to do so.

Bonnie: I don't hate you.

Monty:Yeah sure and I'm the Mona Lisa.

Bonnie: Do you think I'd hate the person that's helped me out with my love life? You think I'd stay up at 2 am for someone who I hate?

Monty: Maybe...

Bonnie: But I wouldn't. Monty your brain is just all fucked up right now, no one hates you.- the other sighed, throwing himself back, now laying on the floor.

Monty: I guess you got a point...- they said, before laying his head on the other's lap.- I'm sorry I screamed at you...- he added in a low tone, Bonnie petting his hair.

Bonnie: It's fine... We should probably go to sleep now....

Monty: Yeah you're right...- he said getting out of the other's lap into his side of the tent, the rabbit laying down and turning off the light, suddenly feeling the other's tail over him, putting his hand on it, Monty, quickly moving his tail away- Sorry.

Bonnie: No it's fine, you can keep it there.- the other didn't think of much, letting his tail rest on top of the other who petted it, until he fell asleep.

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Monty woke up at 10 am, already by themselves on the tent, today was the first day he slept all night, he was glad they didn't have a nightmare but tonight's dream raised more questions.

Oh god. Did I really have that dream?! Just because we fucked before and now I'm dreaming about it doesn't mean I like him don't I?! Please not, it's way to complicated, if he can't even solve his shit with Freddy I shouldn't get involved.

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Bonnie sat next to Roxy, far from the rest, speaking with her has they ate breakfast.

Bonnie: Alright so, you tell me what this sounds like, I woke up in the middle of the night and I heard Monty muttering my name over and over, when I turned on the lights he was asleep.

Roxy: Oh they were definitely having a sex dream with you in it.

Bonnie: I know right?!? Just weird.

Roxy: Why?

Bonnie: Why would he be dreaming about me?! I know we fucked but, besides that I haven't been that nice to him... Why would he think of me like that?

Roxy: They probably just find you attractive, or they got feelings for you, which is highly unlikely to be honest.

Bonnie: Yeah, yeah, you're right...

Roxy: You seam to tolerate him better, anything going on bettewen you two?

Bonnie: Not really, I've just been helping them out. I guess we're just becoming friend's? God that's weird to say but it's true.

Roxy: Makes sense... By the way how are things with Freddy?

Bonnie: They are better, we still on that complicated relationship status but I think it's moving to actually dating, other then just ocasionaly fucking.

Roxy: That's good!

Bonnie: Yeah I know... Just, not ideal. I want something more.

Roxy: Then work for it.

Bonnie: Anywho, how's you and Chica?

Roxy: The usual, although I'm surprised how we haven't accidentally adopted Gregory by now.

Bonnie: What do you mean?

Roxy: Gregory is fucking pissed with Freddy and you know how Chica is with her overprotective mom senses. She's the closest thing to a mom to Gregory so I understand why she needs to comfort him, but fuck, why won't the kid go on your car while you drive? I wanna talk to Chica about something but can't cuz he's always there.

Bonnie: How about after tonight's show I convince him to drive with us?

Roxy: That'd be great... Get some privacy... How I miss that.

Bonnie: We'll bring all the cooking stuff and tents then, that way you two can have more time to talk... Or do more then talk I don't care, have fun.

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-MissevilXD