I Don't Want To Feel Better- [Glamrock FreddyxGlamrock BonniexMonty]

Chapter 19 Patching up

Bonnie woke up, cuddling Monty, his mind going back to last night, him burying his face on the other's chest.

Oh God, I told him I love them?! What was I thinking?! I didn't even say that to Freddy! It's not possible I've developed feelings for this fucker... Ah, I need to think.

He thought, before getting dressed, Monty waking up in the process.

Monty: Morning...- they said still half asleep, rubbing his eyes has he sat up.

Bonnie: Morning.

Monty: Did you meant what you said last night?...

Bonnie: I don't know... It's all so confusing I don't know what to do... I have to figure out my shit, please don't mind that.

Monty: I won't, good luck finding what you want.- they said before leaving to the outside, eating before they all went to the cars, Monty being stuck with Freddy and Gregory. The silence was deafening, so the bassist decided to break it- What do you have against addicts?

Freddy: Really Monty?! My kid is here you know?!

Monty: Yeah but he knows more then you think.

Freddy: I don't want to discuss this, specially with Gregory here.

Monty: Then give me a reason why you suddenly hate me! We've always been on good terms so, why did you change that so fast? Because you found out about my struggles with addiction?!- the bear sighed, before looking at his child.

Freddy: Gregory could you not listen to this?

Gregory: Why not? I'm old enough to know this sort of shit... Also I'm kinda curious too.- the vocalist sighed, before speaking once again.

Freddy: I'm not getting out of this will I?

Monty: No, so just explain.

Freddy: Alright... I don't like addicts not because of the stereotypes around them but mainly from experience... When I was 19 I was in a toxic relationship with someone who used. Gregory's mom insisted on telling me the truth but I couldn't hear it, I already had cut Chica out of my life and the rest of the people I loved so it really was his manipulation against her reasoning... I only really realized how bad it was when Gregory can into the picture... He used to sell his baby clothes and diapers to get money for drugs... I'm really not comfortable sharing more then this with Gregory here, please understand that.

Monty: I understand... You do realize I wouldn't hurt you right?

Freddy: Yeah but the fear is still there.... I fought so hard to get out of there and even after that I... I'm still undoing some of the harm he did. It's nothing against you, I just... I don't like hanging around addicts because of that.

Monty: May I ask what he was on?

Freddy:I'm not sure of it... But hell it made him violent... That's why I don't want to give you a second chance.

Monty: Have I hurt you?- the other looked away, Monty not noticing has his eyes were on the road.

Freddy: Not really.

Monty: Then why don't you give me another chance? What did I do, besides being an addict?

Freddy: I guess nothing... Fine.... I'm willing to give you a second chance, but don't stretch it out, you're still on thin ice.

Monty: Gotcha.

They stopped for gas, Monty standing by the bathroom, playing with his hair, he wanted to smoke but he didn't want to accidentally blow up the gas station, so he just stood there fidgeting, when the bear passed by them, the vocalist noticing the other's upset look, stopping by.

Freddy: Are you ok Montgomery?

Monty: Yeah, yeah, just don't mind me.- they brushed it off, not wanting to talk about it, Freddy sighing, before he held the other's hands.

Freddy: Want to tell me the truth?

Monty: That was the truth.

Freddy: I know you're lying... I know what a depressed person looks like... So speak.

Monty: What do you want me to say?! Ya want me to admit that the withdrawals are making me suicidal? You want me to remind that I not only relapsed on coke but all this time I've been self harm free was for not nothing?... Just let me be by myself.- the other moved up one of the bassist's bands, then turning it, seeing fresh scar's hiding under the jacket, Monty freeing his hands looking away- No one told you could do that. Stay the fuck out of my business Freddy.

Freddy: What's up with you? You try to befriend me, you try to get a second chance and then push me away?

Monty: Who has gave you the right to search for my self harm scar's?!- the other went silent, has Monty stared him in the eyes, before rubbing his eyes under the sunglasses- That's what I thought. Now, will you stop it? I've heard enough about my other addictions.

Freddy: Just let me clean it. I know you get aggressive when anything gets to personal, but just clean them, I don't want you in a hospital again.

Monty: Fine, I'll let you clean them, just go get the stuff.- the vocalist did has asked, getting back to the other and both of them going over to a bench, Monty pulling up his sleeve, showing the other around 10 really fresh scar's, they were deep and Freddy would be lying if he said it didn't make him squeamish- Use gloves.- he said noticing the other still hadn't put any.

Freddy: Why?

Monty: You're hands aren't clean and it's just faster his way....- the other put on the gloves, still looking unsure- If it makes you uncomfortable don't do anything.

Freddy: No it's fine I just... I wasn't really prepared for them to be that deep.- he said before getting some hydrogen peroxide and a cotton ball, dabbing the fluid with it onto the wound's, the other pulled away his arm.

Monty:Ah! Holy shit you could've warned me.- they said the other grabbing his arm and pulling it close.

Freddy: Stop it, I know this isn't that bad, so please stop acting like a big baby.- he said has he continued to clean the cuts.

Monty:Geez you assume a father figure to everyone you know or do you just do it to me cuz I'm younger?

Freddy; Please this isn't me acting like a parent, this is me helping another person who struggles with the same things has me... You know, I don't even know how I'd act if Gregory did this type of shit....

Monty: Maybe the way you're acting right now?... Not judging and handing a helping hand?

Freddy: Yeah... Maybe... Thanks for being there for me when I needed...

Monty: It's nothing... Thanks for patching me up.- he added putting his sleeve back on.

Freddy: It was nothing.

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