Abused, bullied and unloved

Nine

When I woke up, I was in a room with medical equipment around me. I was in the hospital. All I remember is falling down, and then having the darkness take over me. I was looking around the room when a doctor came in. "Oh, your up", he said. "Why am I here?" I asked. "You fainted in class, and didn't want to wake up. Your probable wondering what made you faint." I nodded my head. "You haven't ate anything for a while, so that was the result to you fainting." " When can I leave?" I asked. "When a parent or guardian can sign the release forms". Great, my parents won't be home till Sunday night."Where are your parents", he asked. "On vacation." "Okay well, do you have any other family members that can come." "No", I answered. "Well, I guess we'll just have to wait for your parents." He looked at me for a second and then walked out.

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I spent my weekend, doing nothing, but eating gross hospital food. It was Sunday so my parents were hopefully going to come pick me up. I was watching tv when the doctor came in and told me my parents were here and had signed the release forms. I walked out to find them, they didn't seem happy. I got in the car, the whole ride home was quite. When I got in my dad pushed me to the ground and threw a couple punches. My mom started yelling at me "your so useless, I hope you know we hate you. You just remind me of him!" I had no idea what my mom was talking about. "Why did you have to grow up being a bitch. Why couldn't you be more like your brother." My parents don't usually talk about my brother, Carson, so I was surprised to hear her talk about him. "It's your fault he killed himself. God! Do I hate you so much." I ran upstairs, I can't believe my parents blamed Carson's death on me. I ran into my bathroom and grab my blade. Do I really want to does this, I promised Calum I would try and stop. Screw it I cut several times, watching the blood drip down my arm. I cleaned myself up and stayed in the bathroom.

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I stayed in the washroom for awhile but got up to grab my phone. I texted Ally asking if she wanted to meet at the park next to my house. But she said she couldn't, because she had homework. So I decided to go to my hiding place. I climbed out my window, because there was a tree and I didn't want my parents to know that I was leaving the house. When I arrived at the tree and sat down and just started to cry I still can't believe that my parents blame Carson's death on me. I stayed at the tree for a while but went home, climbed back though my window and went to my bed hating life.