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Analogical Week day 1~Fear

Tw: Panic attacks, mention of unsympathetic dark sides I think

Virgil couldn't remember how it started. His hands shaking immensely, to the point they wouldn't sit still. He gasped for air, a tight feeling in his throat as he tried to breathe, breath hitching. His chest felt heavy, everything was too loud, he just wanted to curl up and just die.

Anxiety was like that when it got bad. It hadn't gotten this bad for a while, it was horrible back when he was living with the dark sides. Remus and Janus only made his anxiety heighten, Janus's lies and Remus's well everything. But ever since he had started living with the lightsides it had gotten easier. Especially with his boyfriend, Logan. Logan always knew what to do, how to calm him.

So why was he having a horrible panic attack right now? Why was he so terrified over nothing!! It had just happened so suddenly, out of nowhere. Virgil had been doing something on his laptop, when he realized he forgot to do something he promised Roman he'd do for Thomas, and he just...started to spiral. He knew Patton was drifting from Roman due to Janus, hell Patton was drifting from him due to that fuckin snake too. He knew the others weren't there for Logan, he'd been comforting his boyfriend a lot lately. He just, he didn't want his new safe life to fall apart like his old one did.

He didn't want to loose all of them, but he mostly didn't wan to loose Logan. He loved Logan more than he'd ever loved anyone before.

Virgil hugged himself tight, he couldn't start over again. He wanted everything to be okay with everyone. At least he had Logan, the adorable sweet boy that just wasn't understood enough. He sobbed to himself before he jolted up with a jump at the door being knocked. "Jesus fucking christ-" he mumbled quiety.

Logan sighed, staring ahead at Virgil's door, "Virgil love, it's me Logan. Are you alright? May I come in?" he asked softly, frowning.

Virgil wanted to say yes, he hated that he couldn't. His breathing heavy, he slipped out a quick,"uh sure-" between sobs.

Before he knew it arms were being wrapped around him from behind, and he was pulled closer towards the taller male's chest where he could lay. He sniffled, cuddling up to Logan, "heh thanks Lo, sorry you have to see me like this I'm a mess-" he muttered but Logan shook his head.

The logical trait gently cuped his cheek, "no," he said sternly. "You're not a mess Virgil, do you think someone as organized as me could -" he took a small breath, "love something who's a mess? No. I love you for you, and it is okay to get like this."

Those feelings were true but it was sometimes hard to say, however he knew how much he wanted to tell Virgil in that moment.

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