Sanity (Part two of Adopted)

Cry Myself To Sleep

We were home. Finally. After a long, dramatic, painful day....were finally home. At this point I didn't care if I was in my clouths still.

Right when I entered through the door I went strait in my room and shut the door.

I walked back and forth trying to stop myself from hyperventilating. Usually when im hyperventilating Sonny calms me down. But I don't want him to. I want to be alone.

I sat on my bed.

Okay, so Crystal is dead, we have to take care of her baby in about four days, I got beat up by my mother, my mother also wants to kill me, and now sooner or later, I'll have to go back and get the baby things for Eleanor.

I thought going over things would help but it didn't.

Get hyperventilating turned into crying. I didn't want to be a wimp about it....even though I got beat up and my sister died today....I still feel like a wimp when I cry about it.

I wish I was like Sonny. He barley Crys.

I heard a knock on my door but I didn't bother to answer. Sonny opened the door and walked in, "Sorry Ellie...I just heard you having a bit of breathing problems and.... "

He sat next to me as I nodded. "Its...fine.." I said, Sonny nodded and put his hand on my shoulder, "Ellie...its okay...just calm down."

I wiped my eyes. "I am calm. We lost so many people...."

Sonny nodded. "I know...."

"I just don't want to....lose you..."

"I don't lose you either Ellie...your the only Person that I care about left in this world.."

"I wish I could be like you....you barley cry about anything.."

"Ellie...."

"What?"

"I cry myself to sleep Almost every night."

"No you don't...I dont hear you"

Sonny shrugged. "You always close your door....I don't know...I always thought your heard me..."

I shook my head. Sonny hugged me. "Sometimes I cry myself to sleep to so don't feel alone okay?"

Sonny smiled. "Okay Ellie, I don't feel alone. I never felt alone. Because you were always here."

I smiled as Sonny walked out of my room. I got up and walked to the phone. I had one unknown voicemail.

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Sorry....its stupid. Its a stupid chapter but whatever. Im off today.

XxxxMikeyxxxX