My Loner Love #Wattys2015

chapter 21 Decided

thanks readers...
Big hugs and kisses..

" I LOVE my eyes, when you look in to them.
I LOVE my name, when you say it.
I LOVE my heart, when you touch it. and I LOVE my life, when you are in it."

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TIN POV

Life without him is lifeless.
Im like a robot. Moving without emotion.

But its my choice to deal with. Maybe someday in the right Place and in the right time.

I went to the office and decided to pass my resignation. Tutal bumalik naman na si Ms Dana, kaya hindi narin ako mahihirapan pa mag-paalam sa HR.

Luckily Stan is not here, i heared his outside the country.

Its better be this way.

I already talked to Mom and Dad.
I planned to stay to my Auntie Jenny.

Auntie Jenny married a business man who is based in singapore and has 2 children. They had their own publishing company. And a chain of restaurant.

At first Mom did not like the idea, but i made them agree because i assure them things will be okay. And i will call them time to time.

" Mom, Dad...i will be fine. Don't worry about me okay. You see im a grown up woman. Besides i also miss tita Jenny." I hug mom as i talked to them.

" So when are you planning to leave?" Dad says

I hug dad in surprise.

" Thank you, dad i love you both." and smile.

Maybe, being miles away will make me move on easily.

" Ohh baby im going to miss you alot." Mom said with her teary eyes.

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Mom and Dad dont know the real reason why i wanted to run away. I just told them that im just going to find my luck outside the country.

I miss my friends so i decided to call and meet them.

" Hey, guys..." we meet at our favorite cafe. " I miss you all."

" Is it true, your leaving?" lolly said
I looked at her and say " Yes its true."

" Since when did you decide?" Lani asked with her questioning eyes. This woman really knew me.

" As soon as possible, tatapusin ko lang ang papers ko sa HRD ang gora na ako!. " I tried to make my talking lively.

" Okay," Lani says.. and shrug her shoulder.

" But sis please call us always huh, make us updated." gem butt in.

And maybe if you are ready you can tell us, anytime, share the reason. Were friends remember." lani said.

I shrug my shoulders.

" Yeah" i said. " You really are my true friends."

" Come on, Power hug..." Lysa says

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Eight months passed and the heartache is still the same. But it makes my mind at peace.

I am working in my auntie Jenny's Sternh publishing company as one of the marketing sales operational manager.

Kinailangan kong maging busy at tutok sa trabaho na binigay sa akin ng asawa ng tiyahin ko, nakita nya rin ang pagiging pursigido ko kaya naman naibigay kaagad sa akin ang posisyon.

Sa walong buwan ko na pamamalagi dito sa Singapore, natutunan ko mamuhay mag-isa. I am given privileged by the company to have my own condominium unit and company car. Trabaho at bahay lang ang ginagawa ko para makalimot.
Pero sa kabila ng pagod, naiisip ko parin sya.

Tsk.. bakit ba hindi kita makalimutan?
Bakit ba mahal parin kita?.. inis na tanung ko sa sarili ko.

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STAN POV

Its been eight months since the last time i saw her, her beautiful face, her smile, her smell. her eyes, her laugh, her warmth, her existence. everything about her! I miss her madly.

Nagdecide akong kalimutan sya, but my heart failed.

I still miss her.

Ngayon alam ko na ang pag-ibig. Alam ko na eto ang pag-mamahal.
Pero sakabila nito ganito din pala masaktan ng Pag-ibig.

I gave her time, Masaya kaya sya.
Mas makabubuti bang magkita kami ulet o mas makabubuting hindi na?
May isang buwan din pinahanap ko kung nasan sya.

Nung araw na nalaman kung umalis sya. Nadurong ang puso ko, naisip ko ibig bang sabihin nito wala na syang nararamdaman sa akin? wala na kaya kaming pag-asa na magka-ayos ulit?

Until Realization hit me...

Im gonna fight for her. And win her back.

Im gonna fight for my LONER heart.

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A/N Pasensya na medyo nahirapan ako isulat to, kaya pagpasensyahan nyu na po..
We are now grieving for the sudden lost of our Grandfather. Our roots..