My Loner Love #Wattys2015

chapter 20 A Goodbye

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" Goodbyes are not forever.
Goodbyes are not the end.
They simply means i'll miss you.
Until we meet again."

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Frustration is written in Stan face.
Where is she?
I call her several times and she's not answering my call! I even dialled to there house and the maid said she's not yet home.

What happen to her?

This is what im avoiding.

I promised to my self not to entertain this f*cking feelings.

Because i dont believe in LOVE.
But i guess i am.. Why? Because im going crazy without her..

Jelousy can kill. Like what happen to my parents.

What the f*ck!

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STAN POV

One week after the incident.
One week of hell. I didnt even have a good sleep, a right meal. Because she never bother to call back or message me.
She's not even present at work.

And now...

I saw her. Tin is in her desk working.

The moment my eyes set to her, i want to run and hug her. Gad i miss her so much. One week without her beside me is killing me.

But i can't because employees are within the around.

" Good morning" as i passed by her desk.

" Good morning Sir" she greeted back.
But i can feel the coldness in her voice.

I enter my office and think a way to talk to her without noticing by the others.

Im a little pissed. She didnt even give a glance when she greeted me.

Didnt she knows how much i miss her!

I phoned her.

I dial and clear my throat, little nervous. This is not really me! Everything is new to me!
a few rings then she answer it.

" I need the files from the current investors. Bring it to me now." I badly need to talked to her.

Knock...

" Sir" She hand me the folder. " Is there anything else Sir." she's cold, Freaking cold.

" Did you eat breakfast already?" She loose weight. She didnt answer, her eyes is emontionless.

" Baby, please.. don't be like this. I cant lose you. Gad, i miss you. Please baby talk to me." I am now infront of her, holding her hands.

" You know what stan, i dont know- Ano bang meron tayo? ano ang relasyon meron tayo?"

Im a little bit stunned.

Ano nga bang meron kami? anong relasyon namin? Hindi ko alam ang isasagot ko.

" Baby im happy with you, you bring life to me."

" Hindi yan ang gusto kong marinig! Anong relasyon meron tayo?!." shes half shouting.

" Alam mo nung bigla kang yinakap at hinalikan ng babaeng yon, i felt trash, i dont know how to react! Kasi hindi ko alam kung may karapatan ako para mag-selos!magalit! Kaya pinili kong lumayo. Dahil wala akong karapatan, hindi ko alam kung anung lugar ko sayo." She's sobbing, and it freaks me.

" Please dont cry. Im sorry." I attempt to hug her, pero she just keep stepping backward.

" No, Please. Kung hindi mo rin lang kayang sagutin ang tanong ko, its better this way. Strangers.."

I grip my breath. What is she trying to imply? Is she ending our unnamed relationship? I closed my eyes. Sobrang nasaktan ko sya. And im aching too.

" Are you ending this? Are you breaking -up with me?" i asked even if it crashes me inside.

She look at me straight into my eyes.
I can see the pain in her beautiful eyes.

" Stan i think its better this way. Habang kaya ko pang tumingin sa mga mata mo ng deretso. Habang my respeto pa ako sayo."

" Goodbye Stan."

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A/N ouch... heartbreaking!
sorry guys...