A (not so) Normal Life of Best Friends

Chapter 40: Too Calm or Too Crazy?

Luna Eclip

I'm starting to think that starting this whole group was a mistake. Aeliana and I haven't gotten anywhere close to being able to protect them and Tim, Thomas, and Will just wanna be assholes to them. It's very stressful being the highest in power of a group, but no one follows the plan like you say. This group is basically a living nightmare, since we can't seem to get them to stop messing around and digging us into a deeper hole. I may even go off and try to protect Evelyn and the others myself if I can't make them follow a simple order to stop screwing things up. We couldn't think of a name for the group either, they just argued about it. Everything about this group is just one big argument, over and over again, everyday. I can barely get five minutes to do anything till someone comes over to me to complain about one of the others, it drives me bat-shit crazy. Aeliana is the only one who doesn't complain to me, she just talks to herself. Sometimes, I just pull my hood over my head and pretend that they aren't there. I just sit, calm and collected in my chair, and pretend that I'm completely alone. Good news is, Phoenix has gotten to forgiving Aeliana, thanks to Kyrie that is. She's such a kind soul, especially to Phoenix. I never understood how she can be such a nice and kind girl, with people around her trying to make her life a living hell. It drove Scout down severally, but how can Kyrie handle it as if it's not there at all? It's so strange, as if her mind just blocks it all off from reality and keeps her from even feeling any of it. I think she's just doing it for Phoenix's sake, cause each time I see her pass when I'm hiding, her expression seems more down and sad than her happy expression when she's with her girlfriend. She might be hiding her emotions, until she's alone as to not make her friends feel bad for her. So, why doesn't she just tell someone about how she feels, there's plenty of people she can talk to about that kind of stuff. Even I know how that feels, I would hide my true emotions from everyone else after Evelyn and I separated. If I'm being honest, it was my fault we separated in the first place. Jealousy got the better of me and I lost my cool, I still feel guilty about what happened that night at the school dance. I miss the way we used to look at the night sky together and him comparing the moon to my eyes. Our first Valentine's Day together at school was a day that made me pissed off at my other friends for a while. The day before I had cut my hair short to show him how it looked. We passed out cards like normal, but while I ended up with at least one from each student in our classroom, Evelyn only ended up with one. That one card was from me, and me only. Everyone started laughing and calling him names as his head was facing down trying to hide tears running down his face. The only one not laughing was a girl in the back, she hadn't given anyone cards as she was trying to save up to buy chocolate for her sister. That was Aeliana before I had really gotten to know her, she only looked away and pretended she wasn't listening as she worked on poems she wrote. I grabbed Evelyn's wrist and pulled him out of the classroom and into the unisex bathroom. He was in tears and sobbing into my shirt as I wrapped my arms around him, it seemed like there wasn't much that the paper towels did besides rub red marks on his face. It felt horrible seeing him this condition, as if someone had tortured him till he was nothing, but a powerless and scared being. After about fifteen minutes, he had calmed down and was sitting in my lap, as I sat against the wall. He was back to showing me that smile that I remembered so well. Call me crazy, but I don't think I could ever fight him. He did nothing wrong, so why would he deserve to be hurt?