The first couple chapters might not be written well, but it does get better as the book goes on.
I've edited most again.
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Stared: April 9th, 2022
Finished: May 22nd, 2023
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3rd person POV:
"Hello? Earth to T?" Tae said while waving his hand infront of T's face.
T snapped out of his daze, reluctantly drawing his eyes away from Z.
"What?"
Tae followed where T's gaze was and looked back at him in understanding, as if he has any idea what's going on in his head at the moment.
"The arm wrestling contests between Z and Tyler are getting a bit old aren't they? There's no way Tyler will ever win one."
"But he still keeps asking to do them," T looked back over at the two.
"I guess it's a matter of pride," Tae shrugged.
"Yeah, maybe."
T replied, "So are we gonna start practicing or?"
T had watched at the way Tyler's eyes kept drifting from Z's face to his arm, then back to his face again.
Interesting.
The duration of thier dance practice was spent with T sneaking as many glances to Tyler as possible, and almost always noticing that he was looking at Z.
Interesting.
Ever since those two met once again, Tyler has always been close to Z. I mean they haven't seen eatchother in six years, and they were good friends, so it makes since. Yet the way Tyler looked at Z made T feel a certain way, one he couldn't describe.
When the rest of the group was packing up to leave, T stayed and waited for Z outside the studio. He got impatient much faster than usual, and poked his head back in the room. Z and Tyler were sitting down talking on one of the benches, T felt his stomach drop. He pulled his head back from the doorway and walked to his house alone.
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T and Z were cuddling on Z's couch while watching TV. T's head was on Z's chest, listening to his steady heartbeat.
"Hey, why didn't you wait up for me yesterday?"
T lifted his head, "Oh, it looked like you were busy with Tyler."
"Yeah, we just wanted to talk a bit, sorry."
T put his head back down, "It's fine."
Z put his hand on T's back, "It's just I know you don't like walking home alone at night so,"
Z ran his free hand through T's hair, but soon stopping, "What's wrong?"
T didn't bother lifting his head, "Nothing."
Z frowned, "It doesn't look like nothing, you're being quiet. So I'm gonna ask again, what's wrong?"
T sighed, "Nothing it's just," T's body wouldn't alow him to tell him that he's in a mood because he's jealous of his childhood friend.
"What? You can talk to me you know."
T sat up, straddling his boyfriend, "Do you ever think about telling people..about us? Like, does it bother you that no one knows?"
"Where's this coming from?"
T played with the drawstrings on his sweatshirt and shrugged, "Does it not bother you?"
Z reassuringly squeezed T's hand, "Bother isn't the right word. Sure, I want people to know we're together, but you're not ready and I'm willing to wait."
"Thats what's bothering you?"
Sort of, not really. "Yeah, I just feel like.."
"I'm not going to let you out yourself before you're ready just because you feel bad."
"Maybe we could just tell our friends." T held Z's face in his hands, "Just them."
"Are you actually okay with that?"
T hesitates, "That's what I thought," Z sighed, "What are you rushing for?"
I'm so fucking jealous. "It's hard on you isn't it?"
Z frowned, "Not as hard as it is on you, don't worry about me."
"I want people to know, I just-"
"I know."
"My parents, and those girls that follow me around, and my ex.."
"It's okay, I know."
"It's more than just feeling bad, I also want people to stop hitting on me,"
Z scoffed, "Yeah, I'd like that also, but i can't do anything about it. I'm not worried about you cheating because no one else can put up with how annoying you are."
Z had a point, he was the only one for him, but was T the only one for Z?
Everyone seemed to get along with Z, and he had a lot of friends. T was surrounded by people all the time, but didn't actually have many friends. Maybe Z would realize how much T leaned on him and think it was clingy or weird, maybe he wanted someone less annoying. Maybe Aiden was that. It bothered T that he couldn't read Z like he can most people. Maybe when it came to Z, he was seeing through rose tinted glasses. And T knew he would always crawl back to Z, but he didn't know if Z would come crawling back to him.
"Hey, did that upset you? I'm sorry." Z pulled T back onto his chest, one hand running through his hair, and the other softly stroking his back. T didn't realize he was crying until he tasted the salt in his mouth. He touched his cheeks feeling that they were wet.
"I love you a lot, you know that."
"I know."
Z kissed T, "I'm sorry for making you upset, I love you. And I'll wait as long as you want, until you're ready to tell everyone. Then I'll brag about how I'm dating Aaron T."
T smiled as Z wiped the tears off his face, "But until then, this is more than enough, yeah?"
"Yeah."
The silence is filled by the TV that neither are watching, instead T is tracing Z's arm with his finger. It's no wonder that Aiden kept staring at Z's arms, they were T's favorite also.
"Oh, I forgot to mention, I have plans friday."
T looked up at him, "With who?"
"Tyler, we are going to see a movie and then move on from there I guess."
T looked back down, "Oh, okay. Sorry I couldn't hang out."
"It's fine, I know you and Tae haven't hung out in awhile, and we hang out every weekend, so it's no problem."
T hummed, "Do you not have a problem with me hanging out with them? Like do you get jealous?"
"Not really, why would I? You're all mine."
T couldn't help but feel a little dissaponted, if Z didn't get jealous beacuse he trusts T, didn't that mean that T didn't trust Z? That Z wasn't all his?
