𝙎𝙊𝙐𝙇𝙈𝘼𝙏𝙀𝙎 𝘼𝙐 [𝐩𝐚𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐬]

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A/N: So this chapter focuses on trauma, specifically Patroclus, so if you do not want to read that I will write a re-cap at the end of the chapter. There are a few possible TWs so here's a list.
-Child abuse
-Sex mentioning
-F- slur (I am in the LGBTQ so I can say it)
-Homophobia
Mental health is very important to me, and I can't not write about it, cause the truth is not everyone is 100% happy, so here! This one made me cry a little. Enjoy!
       Company with Achilles is the greatest thing I know.  He always has a delicate yet amusing way of doing things, like we're painting and Achilles went to change the song on his phone, but he was covered in paint, so he used his toes. "Ok Patroclus serious question!" Pa-tro-clus, he always takes his time saying my name, and it sounds wonderful when he says it, it means "glory of the father" how ironic. "What is your question?" I asked, focusing on half him and half on the wall we were painting. "What's your sexuality? Wait! Oh no what if I've been using the wrong pronouns this entire time!" I laughed lightly "No, you have not, I would have corrected you, but if you really must know I'm bisexual." I've only dated a girl once but we didn't kiss or anything, looking back on it,  not a healthy relationship. "Phew, I'm gay-" he paused mid-sentence "NO!" He cried I set the paint roller down "Achilles?"  "If you're bi than that means Briseis still had a chance." He is absolutely ridiculous, "Achilles, she's literally just my neighbor!"  He sighed "Yeah! I'm way better than her!"  I can't believe he was jealous of her. I've never even considered being with her.
After that we continued to paint and paint for hours, just taking in each other's prescience, then my phone started to vibrate like crazy, "I'll check it after we paint, we're almost done." I thought to myself.
When we finished we took off our aprons and washed our hands, then cleaned up the mess. Now we have to wait for the paint to dry. I picked my phone off the counter and jumped to sit onto the counter top. 19 missed massaged and 6 missed calls.
10:27 P.M
Father: Hello
Where were you two boys hiding this weekend? Huh?
Answer me.
I am your father dammit.
You know what no,
I'm gonna disown you!
Answer!
Patroclus...
ANSWER ME
You were probably having sex with that poor boy
Achilles right?
Well I know his parents.
You can't escape this!
Your gonna answer me
Just cause you are gay doesn't make you invincible!
Poor Achilles
How do people put up with this
Are you scared
Scared to answer me?
Fine.
I'll find out my own way!
Fag

I set my phone down and just stared at the wall, "what are you thinking about?" Achilles asked "Nothing" but that was a lie, there was always something. "Well technically nothing is something." He put his head on my shoulder, his hair flowed along my back, "tell me," I didn't know what to tell him, I don't really feel one emotion right now, I'm scared, angry, confused and so much more, but if achilles was my soulmate I know I can trust him. I handed him the phone with all the massages, His expression was blank but I could see sadness in his eyes. "Why is your dad so rude to you? That one time in the hotel when I was hugging you wasn't just affection it was because I saw some of the messages between y'all, what did you do to make him so angry?" "I never did anything to him, I just wasn't good enough for him." I thought about all the times he compared me to other little boys, because I wasn't strong, or fast, or graceful, I was just me. "Has it been this way forever?" He says up leaning close to me, "Yes, but I wasn't bad until my mother passed away," Achilles looked saddened by this, I want him to smile, but I knew now wasn't a time to smile. "You know what..." Achilles took my hand, "We are gonna block you're stupid dad and then we can talk about all this, ok?"I nodded and achilles picked up my phone. He gave me an encouraging smile and I reached over and hit the block button on this contact, never to contact him virtually again.
Achilles scooted closer to me, "Look Patroclus, you don't have to, but maybe talking about it will help you feel better, I'm always here to listen to you." Whether I liked it or not feelings and emotions were Part of relationships and sometimes they aren't always positive, I have no idea where to start telling Achilles about everything but I knew I was going to. "My father always thought I was awful, for not being strong or graceful, he was a abuser, or is, I have no idea but I know if my mother was alive it would not be this way." I tried not to cry, but I could not help it, as I was human, like everyone else on this messed up planet. Achilles turned me to face him and wiped my eyes with his thumbs, "Gosh, I never realized how much you've been through, I think your very strong Patroclus," he touched our foreheads together, "The strongest person I know." I put my head on his shoulder, and cried lightly until the darkness of the night took over and I feel to sleep.

Recap: They paint the wall and talk about sexuality and pronouns, Patroclus reveals he's bi and Achilles tells Patroclus that he is gay. Patroclus receives messages from his father and Achilles and Patroclus have a talk about his father and his mother passing away after they finish painting.