𝙎𝙊𝙐𝙇𝙈𝘼𝙏𝙀𝙎 𝘼𝙐 [𝐩𝐚𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐬]

Bonus chapter-Favorite

A/N: I am randomly missing this fic and we just hit 3k reads so here, a bonus chapter! :)

TW:
Suicidal thoughts/themes
Intrusive thoughts
And maybe derealization?

Lets get the (real) last chapter started, shall we?

It was the middle of the night. I laid in bed next to my soulmate, he was asleep. But for me its one of those sleepless nights.
      A thousands thoughts run through my mind.
Am I good enough?
What if I see my father again?
Why am I alive?
Would people care if I died?
How the hell am I supposed to get eras tour tickets?

    I sat up, sighing, accepting that I don't know the answers. I didn't know what to do. I really do not want to beleft alone with my mind for too long, but I don't want to wake achilles from his slumber. I put my feet on the cold floor, slowly rising to stand, when I felt a cold hand loosely grab mine. "Achilles?" I whispered, he mumbled something under this breath and rubbed his eyes, "Patty, its 1:30 in the morning" "I know...I just cant sleep," he tugged my hand, I sat back down on the bed faced away from him. "Is everything okay?" He asked
...
"Mhm"
No.
Im not okay, sometimes I just feel like Im pointless and I don't get what the point of life is.
Moms dead.
Dad doesn't care.
Nobody cares
Kill yourself Patroclus

   I felt shifting on the bed and then I felt Achilles arms wrapped around me from behind. He could sense something was up, "You can tell me anything, or not, im here Pat." For some reason, I started to panic.
What if Achilles saw me differently after I tell him how Im feeling What if-
   Achilles seemed to notice my distress and squeezed my hand, "hey, hey! its okay you don't have to talk about it..." I sighed, If I kept this to myself Id probably die feeling alone. Teary eyed, I looked at my feet, deciding that Im just gonna tell him. "This rarely happens but, sometimes I cant help but think if it wold be better with me gone." "Wdym, Patroclus?" He said, his hands hugging my torso from behind. "I guess I just feel worthless sometimes, like maybe I don't deserve the life I have..." he stiffened, "Pat, if you don't deserve the kinda messed up life you've lived than there no way In hell I deserve my life," He moved, now sitting beside me, "You are the most worthwhile and wonderful person I have ever met. You studying to be a doctor for Gods sake, your.." he paused, grabbing my face with one hand, "Your my favorite person ever, Patroclus". I smiled,
Did he mean all that?
Im his favorite...
     I could feel his hot breath because of the little room between our faces, "Your my favorite too..." I breathed, My face heating up from the close proximity to Achilles lips. He brought his other hand to grip my face and pushed his lips onto mine. His lips soft, they tasted like the oreo ice cream we had hours ago. My hands slipped to his waist, as he slowly laid back onto the bed. Our lips still tangled together, I hovered over achilles. Moments later we broke apart, I flopped down beside him gasping for air.
     "That escalated quickly!" He laughed, and I smiled, admiring him silently. "Pat I really mean everything I said, Id set the world on fire for you because your everything, and I love you." I grabbed his hand, with his stupid short bitten nails, "I love you too, but you'd set the world on fire for fun!" I laughed, he smirked. "Sounds like something I would do!"
     We laid together on the bed (laying the wrong way that is), in silence until my eyelids felt heavy and I drifted to sleep.

Achilles pov (?)

I watched Patroclus sleep. That sounds creepy but it was what I was doing! Anyway...
today he scared me a little.
What if I hadn't woken up would he would done something to hurt himself?
I have no clue but whatever it is it made my protective instincts kick in, I now know that I will do everything I can to make sure that boy feels worth it. He's been through a lot and that makes me angry at the world, even tho im always angry at the world...Anyway man, bottom line is,
im his lifesaver.
His soulmate
and he's stuck with me wether he wants to be or not! Im gonna make him feel all special and loved and then imma marry him, one day. I know its saying a-lot, but he's literally my soulmate, dude.
I brushed his hair our of his face, resisting the urge to squeeze him as hard as humanly possible.
Im glad I got evicted all that time ago.
Im glad he bumped into me that day.
Im glad he's my soulmate.

A/N:
been a while huh? Missed yall I missed this fanfic- I rlly rlly rlly rlly miss it and I have for so long!! Rn im working on my will solace story but I cant seem to get into it like I was into this one. This story was my comfort in my darkest time and Im so grateful for all the ppl reading this. Happy holidays and happy new year, I love you all. Idk what Ill write next but Im glad that you guys will be there to read it. I rlly cant thank you enough!! <33