Existing at Once

Chapter 3 ~ Discovery

Middle school is a very scary place to be in when it comes to discovering new things such as porn, new hobbies, a further extension of liberty and most importantly, meeting new people.

Just as how middle school can be exciting, it is equally just as scary, but this is when the true battle of time in which the past, present, and future versions of Entia struggle in deciding what actions and words are the best to use in their coming interactions with old and new people.

Another orientation comes around and Entia's there in the midst of everyone as if it were a fucking romantic cliche where the protagonist comes and embraces his loved one after so much time.

Well, not this pussy ass protagonist, as soon as Entia sees Prairie after nearly two years in her white collared middle school shirt with a cute mid-skirt with a tied up ponytail while she held her bag with both hands in front of her, she then gets ready to say hi and hug Entia after so long, but her first words to her were, "hey nice to see you but I got to get my P.E clothes from the student store."

What a fucking dick right? The very person that helped create such a precious moments, pays her back with a big fuck you by ignoring her one more damn time out of sacredness because she had a fucking glow up while dear Entia still had her fat gut, in fact it got it got bigger and heavier to carry around.

This was just heartbreaking to the both of them because the two had actually been texting through their moms phones throughout 5th grade since Entia moved to another elementary school and also texted through the summer that led to their first year of middle school.

Same action, but different reason for having ran away one more time, the first was to go and please the other boys, the second however was because of the new appearance, but there's always a deeper reason as to why a person may conceal their deepest fears.

Despite different time and magnitude of sending a fuck you, Entia committed but better yet, was reminded by herself that she was still scared, scared of just believing she'll have one person beside her at all times that will care for her is what terrified little Entia.

As for why she feared that form of dependency, she felt as if she wasn't good enough to have it and that if she were to ever have someone like Prairie, she might go away, or she might find someone better.

Now as to what made Entia like this as a 6th grader... the reason still remains unknown to her, but her suspicion lies within her even earlier years as a kid. Stupid desensitization.

Anyway! All reasons as to why Entia was afraid were valid to her at the time, to have the dependency of someone providing care for her other than her family? That's a ticking bomb bomb of trauma waiting to explode. All by the cause of one person.

So you gotta see why Entia was deciding to play it safe by avoiding Prairie one more time, thankfully it was the last though.

But if the wisdom of her future self had at least been able to provide a memory link that would tell her to live and not risk isn't truly living.

Then perhaps she would've had a different outcome, that is at least what the Entia as a middle-schooler thought.

But to also just mourn in the past and not move forward, is cowardice in itself is what she also didn't know.

What was Entia going to know though? So instead of isolating herself with her own thoughts, she was going to Hide all her emotions of sadness and regret by avoiding the potential love of her life once more and find another temporary person to fill the lonely void. Voila, perfect solution.

Coincidentally later that day then Entia at least got to make another friend that just drew out all her sexual desires but of course, not being attractive enough, Entia just had to let all her sexual desires ooze out in the form of fingering herself in the bathroom whenever she got the chance.

But at the moment Entia thought to play it casual by starting off as friends.

"What's your name?" Entia asks as she manages to hide her moist pants by crossing her legs.

Now as to what made Entia so turned on, well the girl wore leggings, sat next to her as she got ready for the class period , but to top it off, she accidentally dropped her pencil and bent down in front of her right before sitting.

Entia was still attempting to redefine her sexuality during this phase, but one thing for sure she enjoyed from other human body was a nice ass. How did this come to be? Gotta thank the accidental walk in of her parents doing doggy style for a brief second.

So of course this got Entia curious to find the most defined piece she had seen in her life, that is... other than the ones she saw from her parents.

Getting back to it! Entia was mesmerized with what she had seen as the girl came back and said.

"Floribunda" Entia then stunned that she couldn't even remember her last name, "A-ah, nice to meet you, hope we can be good friends."

"Me too, I think we will be." said Floribunda as she was confused why Entia looked so nervous but nonetheless was still delighted to have made a friend.

Besides the two love interests Entia had, she was still very much aware that she still had to make more friends since all the ones she made in elementary had either forgotten about her or just went to a different middle school.

Thankfully, she fit right in with a nerd group that sat at a curb alongside the lunch tables in which all they would ever do is just play with their hand held devices that had the game cartridge of a game in which consisted of fire water and grass type animals, and that also had been around already by then for about 15 years during this time.

Regardless, then enters the acquired new best friend for the coming years of middle school, high school and a bit of adulthood... Leinad Hernandez

There were two others that had accompanied Entia and Lienad throughout out their adventure of middle school, but they aren't really worth mentioning compared to Leinad whom in which remained for at least quite some time.

For what mattered then to Entia is that if she managed to score a best friend for herself for the next couple years, she would at least be able to keep a person around at a safe distance.

Safe distance meaning that she wouldn't fall in love easily with, but also wouldn't develop much of a dependency with either.

Little did young Entia know that Leinad wasn't ever close to actually capturing Entia's heart. This was all due to the reason in which all of the time they spent with each other, Leinad was never able to express his true feelings to Entia, whether they be romantic or simply as a friend.

Leinad always found himself to always be afraid of showing vulnerability.

Could you blame him though?

His first response to Entia was, "O-oh, y--y-you wanna sit next to me? Yea! Go ahead." As he was crouched over his backpack from having watched another kid play his video game, to easily diverting his attention to Entia.

Really Leinad wasn't all that good looking, not especially with his uni brow that Entia implored over the course of 7 years for him to remove but wouldn't due to masculine idiotic pride.

Overall, he was a good guy though, a shoulder to cry on? You betcha. Provided time and minimal effort, Entia was then satisfied in mediocrity of his presence.

But in the events that are to transpire with the three individuals mentioned, they'll definitely leave an impact in Entia's journey.

For now though, in the moments of 6 to 8th, it is the present that overcomes this battle of time.

Meaning Entia lived to the fullest within these three years with no disregard of the past or future and most selfishly, of others.

Simply as the stupid saying goes.

"Live in the moment."