Dream came True

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Amar POV

I don't know if what I did was right or wrong, I just felt like it and I am really sorry for Jimin but I have to spend some time away from him, I have to get over this guilty feeling and him being around won't help, I know I broke him but it's also a chance to validate our love, it's chance to test if we will stay loyal or was it just a play all this time.

Once I stepped foot in England, I was determined to go back to my old life, call me selfish but that's how I cope with my problems, I try to forget everything that happened and pass everything that's how I do it, but my love for Jimin won't change even if he decided to have enough of me.

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JIMIN POV

When I woke up after crying myself to sleep, I felt empty and vacant, did she really have to leave? Was I wrong to let her go and not fight for her? I don't know but why do I feel that she left me, she suddenly and without notice left, this is so cruel to do to someone, being everything in their lives and then leave.

I decided that I will live normally and that I won't call her until she is ready to come back, but when is that? I will just have faith that she heals quickly, that bomb that popped in our life wasn't expected just from couple days we were on the Effile tower kissing and declaring our love.

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" guys what should we do? It's been 3 months since they last talked" J-hope said as they were eating lunch together after practise

" I really don't know what's wrong with them" Jin commented

" he looks horrible" Jungkook said looking at Jimin who was still exhausting himself with practise

" I know, maybe the last time I saw him eating was two week ago" Taehyung said

" Hmm and what about Amar?" Suga asked

" I called Adam two days ago and he said she was no difference, she is not eating and working to very late at night not having enough sleep" Taehyung replied

" then if they both miss eachother why don't they just go back together!" Jin exclaimed

" Jimin thinks that he would pressure her if he called and she thinks that she is not worthy of his love anymore" Taehyung said

" these idiots, didn't we put that Dylan in jail and everything was settled" Suga said

" we did but with the lack of communication neither of them knows what the other feels" Namjoon finally spoke

" then how should we help them?" J-hope asked yet again

" Hoba we tried everything, forcing them to call, talking with them and even trying to make them admit their feelings, nothing works" Namjoon answered

" why did she leave in the first place?" Jungkook asked

" she wanted to heal from the incident" Taehyung said

" and 3 months isn't enough for her" Jin said again in annoyance

" we just have to hope that this concert in London will bring them back together" Namjoon said his last words before resuming practise

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" yaahh Jiminahh how do you feel about this concert?" Jungkook said trying to make him be excited about it

" it's good i will have the chance to meet the army again " Jimin said with coldness

" hmm and nothing else makes it exciting" Jungkook tried his best to bring Amar in the topic but Jimin was an expert in avoiding this

" huh? Aren't you coming inside?" Jungkook said as he saw jimin going to his car instead of going into the house

" I want some fresh air, I will be back soon" Jimin said getting into the car

JIMIN POV

it's been a month since I am coming here everyday, our place.....sorry my bad... My place, I tried to live normally and be understanding but she took way too long to come back and she seems okay, Is that my signal to move on? But how can I move on from her, she is my everything!

I have been drowning myself in alcohol until I can't feel any pain then I would go back sleep and practise that was basically all my day, nothing special and it's the time of the day that I drown myself.

I drank about 10 bottles of alcohol with different types and still my pain is still here, I have no alcohol left!, I lied on the ground and let my emotions take a hold of me, my mind playing everything that happened between us since our first talk in Paris when she was trying to make us know her, the time when she was in coma

the way she always was there to make me laugh, the moments between her and my mother which I felt like she is the one
, to the time when I was exhausted emotionally and she was there, the time when we danced under the rain, our first kiss in front of the tv, our first sex when we were in newzeland, the first time I took her to this place, first time I went to the parachutes with her, first time she met my parents, heh she was so awkward, first time seeing my bare body, first time.....first time, I had everything for the first time with her

" I shouldn't have let you go" I
I mumbled to myself then I passed out

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When I woke up next morning due to the sun rays being right into my eyes, I took the car and went back to take a shower and freshen up before the last practise in Korea before we fly to.......England

After I was done dressing my clothes, I took my phone to spend some time until the rest get ready, yeah I have been the first one to get ready now since I haven't been putting that much effort anymore

Once I opened the phone, it opened on my instagram, in Amar's account messages , sh*t sh*t I sent a voice message!! 2 mins long!! How can I delete this? Oh my god it's SEEN!! what should I do? What did I even send?!

[FALSHBACK]

Jimin was too drunk to even think of what he was doing, after closing his eyes for couple minutes, he opened the phone and recorded this voice closing the phone again as if nothing happened

"Hello amar I wish you can hear this.......... * sobbing* I need to talk .... I need someone to listen......... *crying* I-I need you.... I am dying amar really I am dying I can't edure anymore amar * sobbing* I miss you so much..everything in my life remind me of you.... how I wish to disappear now....... I will abandon everything just to relive these moments again that attack me everyday causing me to collapse anywhere and anytime...... I can't do it anymore amar I wish you were beside me acting as my therapist * chuckled* I wish you were here to hug me but this time I won't let go forever for the end of my life "

Amar was actually awake and checking his account debating whether she should send him a message or not? She was also being tortured by her decision and she wanted to call him and tell him that she wants him but everytime she was about to do this , the raping scene comes to her mind and voice telling her she doesn't deserve Jimin and that when his voice note was sent, she eagerly clicked to hear it after she heared it her cheeks were already wet and her heart broken and her soul torn apart

And she took her decision...

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