Finding myself (18+)

Chapter 32

"Not going to see your male friend this weekend again?" Prika asks and I shake my head, pretending to be interested in my studies.

"It's a long time not to see a boyfriend." Antoine's eyes met mine briefly and then they are back to his book. He pokes about this specific subject at each opportunity he gets. I take a deep breath and found Prika staring at me and mouthing sorry. I know it wasn't her intention to poke or give Antoine an opportunity to do so. She wants me to share things with her, to share about my new relationship. She's curious and I can't blame her. We are friends, but I kept it all to myself. Afraid of what she might think of me, that she'll think I'm stupid to accept it.

True to his promise Andrew has been calling me every day. Sometimes it's short due to our time schedules, but he never failed.

I came to learn Diana is studying and living in Germany, his father didn't really retire and his work schedule is crazy. He works almost non-stop and I'm not surprised his father got sick, there is no other way of going out of a job like that.

Now it has been three weeks since the last time we saw each other. Since we spent an amazing weekend in the Loire valley. He showed me several castles and several orgasms. I wasn't waiting for such an amazing place, for such an amazing weekend. Something about there made me believe everything and anything is possible.

"Hey", I accept a video call from Andrew. He's handsome, wearing a tuxedo with his hair styled.

Tonight is the gala from his work. He wanted me to be there, I wanted to be there. But my studies are my priority.

"Whatcha doing?" He smiles, and I watch him walking down a beautiful hallway. My eyes are fixed on the huge chandelier behind him until he steps out of the building into the garden.

"Studying." I raise a book to prove it.

"Alone?" His voice drops and he raises his brows. We've been talking dirty on the phone so often, that it became natural. And I know exactly where he's leading our conversation. It doesn't matter if he's in the middle of a party. Well, it didn't matter last week when he was in his office late for a meeting or when I was walking back to my dorm after class.

"No, I'm with Priscila and Antoine," I'm fast to reply. Not needing my friends to be a part of it.

His smile drops instantly and I see the change in his behavior. I'm very aware he's jealous of Antoine.

I got up to go outside and talk this through when I see a girl approaching Andrew from behind.

"I was wondering where you hid," Alicia tells him, driving him to turn his head and face her.

I stop walking when she places a hand on his shoulder and tightens her dirty fingers around it.

"We're waiting for your speech." She continues.

He nods and I expect her to leave but she stays there smiling at him. Like he's with her or something.

Bile rises in my throat. Knowing she's there with him, talking to him, hearing his speech. I can't even be there when he has an important event for his work. He never gave too much importance to it, but what if it is? He's the boss, probably it means something. And I'm not the one being there on his side. She is.

"Need to go. Guess you're busy there anyway." He says staring at the phone and all I can do is nod. Avoiding once again the tears forming in my eyes.

"What's going on?" Prika is by my side as soon as the call is finished.

"Nothing. It's stupid. I'm stupid."

"You're not. Who was the girl? His sister?" I stare back at her, I thought they couldn't hear her voice since she was in the back. But they did.