Bluebonnet Love

Chapter 18

Bryn
Why am I getting all emotional over Amy's words? Ive heard them plenty of times over the past 15 years since she moved here. She's been my personal bully, always putting me down or tripping me in the hallways. I used to tell my mom about it and we would sit in the backyard on the swing in the tree and talk for hours about my days at school. She would always have comforting words to help me get past her bullying, knowing that soon I'll be gone from here starting new at college has been my strength now a days since she died. A lone tear escapes my eye as she talks about me in front of Gavin like I'm some trailer park trash and I cant to see his face, what his eyes will hold when they look at me now. Will he not want me now that I'm not as rich or perfect as her, will he hate me because I'm emotional over words? I quickly wipe the tear away catching Rhys' eyes that are full of pity, yep that's what Gavin's gonna look at me with now too, pity. As we get into the truck we both don't say anything at first, I cant bring myself to look at him scared of what I'll see there, he grabs my hand and squeezes it tight "Hey, look at me angel" he says softly. Finally turning my head to look at him I see concern and love in his eyes, "Don't listen to her, she's just jealous" Jealous? Why would she be jealous of me, I'm nobody. "Huh, what do you mean? Why would she be jealous?" I ask him curiously. As he pulls the truck over he lets out a heavy sigh, "I know you don't know much about my past and I'm not proud of it but me and her hooked up a couple times last year" Instantly my heart broke hearing his words, I knew he wasn't a virgin and most likely fooled around with a lot of girl like Rhys did, but her, my worst enemy. He slept with her!

I didn't realize it but the tears stated falling uncontrollably from my eyes as he reaches over to wipe them away. "I'm so sorry angel, I swear to you I haven't been with her since last year. Actually I haven't been with anyone in a couple of months. I just got tired of the same old thing I wanted something more just not with just anyone. Then I met you, and I instantly felt a connection with you, a pull that I don't want to lose over my past" He looks out the window with a somber look on his face waiting for me to say something back. I just cant wrap my head around it, him and her, together. But I love him and I don't want to lose him over something as ridiculous as sleazy Amy. Taking. With a deep breath I grab his hand in mine and pull him to me and press my lips to his roughly. Putting all my love and trust into the kiss to let him know that he still has me. At first he doesnt respond probably due to shock which he quickly recovers from and pulls me into his lap and deepens the kiss, thrusting his tongue into my mouth feverishly. Moaning I grab his neck and pull him closer to my pulling at the hairs at the back of his head, he lets out a grunt and his hands start to rub my thighs. Knowing we cant go much further sitting on the side of the road in broad daylight I pull away reluctantly. Groaning he tried to pull me back but I shake my head at his antics and give him a smile which he returns. "So are your still my angel? I haven't lost you?" I shake my head no and give him a quick peck "nope I'm yours Gavin, I love you!" "I love you too angel." Climbing back into my seat I Roebuck let my seatbelt as we get back on the road to my house. Pulling into my driveway I lean over to give him a quick kiss before getting out but he grabbed my wrist  before I could get very far, with a small giggle I roll my eyes at him "Gavin, I have to go. My dad is probably pacing around thinking of ways to kill you." Rolling his eyes he just smiles "Can I see you later on, before I head back home?" My brother will be here shortly so we'll probably have a dinner for him smirking at him I nod my head. "My brother will be here by 2pm and we're gonna do a dinner for his return, why don't you come by around 5 and you can meet him and have dinner with us" smiling he nods and says he'll see me later hes heading to Rhys'.

Entering the house I find my father sitting on the couch watching a rerun football game and a beer in his hand, he turns to look at me, seeing my red puffy eyes he automatically thinks the worst I know as he rushes to me. "What happened baby girl? What did he do?"  I shake my head at his accusations of Gavin, "It wasn't Gavin daddy, he didn't do anything. It was Amy. She..she.. she said I was a charity case that's why Gavin and Rhys were there with me, made it seem like I was some trailer park trash" I said as the tears started flowing again just thinking about it. He suddenly wraps he up in his arms shushing me and gently rubs my back in circular  motions. "Hey, its ok baby girl. Don't listen to her, I honestly want that girls problem is with you but I know your a bright young girl who's gonna go places she couldn't even imagine. I love you baby girl and I know your mother would be proud of you and all that you've accomplished." With a sad smile I nod my head at him, wiping my eyes I turn the conversation to Cutter who's due to arrive shortly. "I was thinking we can do a dinner for Cutter tonight, how does spaghetti with garlic toast sound?" He gives me a tight bear daddy hug that only he can give "Sounds good" "umm.. would it be ok if Gavin came to dinner as well?" I ask him with a nervous look thinking he would tell me no, with a groan he gives me a curt nod. "Before you start thinking the worst, we came home late last night and yes, we kissed and messed around but didn't take it too far. I love him daddy, Ive never felt this way about anyone before I feel all giddy and happy when I'm with him" "As long as he treats you right baby girl, that's all I care about." Hugging him tighter I thank him repeatedly as a big belly laughs forms from him. Releasing me I tell him I'm gonna head to the store to get the ingredients for tonight's dinner before Cutter gets here. A smile makes its way onto my face as I grab my keys and head out the door knowing my dad approves of Gavin.