Illicit Affair (Published With Etluxocpub)

3 - Misunderstood

**Warning SPG Scene Ahead**

I have to go out of that house or else I'll burst into pieces. I don't know what happened, but I can feel that Noelle is angry with me. Angry is understatement, he is furious and ready to shred me into pieces. I have waited for five long years to see him, but I didn't expect a hostile Noelle. I followed all what Connor told me to do, I kept my cool when I found out that he left even after what had happened to us. I should have followed him, I shouldn't have listened to Connor. Maybe Noelle misunderstood my absence that day but I left him because Connor chance upon us in bed and I have to explain all about it in front of Connor and their father. I have good intention with Noelle and all that I'm doing is for him. I have to secure his future as I promised to his father.

I kept my distance as he studied abroad as I don't want me to be a distraction to him. I let him grow on his own so he could find himself. I didn't force him my presence so he can be better person for himself. But the moment I see him again he is another person all together. I shouldn't have listened to Connor, I shouldn't have kept my distance, I should have made my presence known to him.

"Do you know about his relationship Connor?" I asked Connor, still I can't believe with what I saw earlier. "You told me he is doing fine by himself in America. I kept my distance as I promised you and your dad but look likes I missed my chance now."

Connor wasn't paying attention to me. I know something is wrong. I need explanation, I followed everything they told me to do but I got the end of bargain as looser. How can he be engage with his boyfriend? How come I wasn't informed that he got a boyfriend?

I am driving aimlessly to release my pent up emotion. I miss him so much and I was so happy when I heard his voice again but the way he looked at me left an ugly bitter taste. There was so much hatred in his eyes, I want to sooth those hatred out of his beautiful eyes. I want to see the smiling, carefree Noelle. I want to see my Noelle again, the adorable Noelle whose eyes only see me.

I have done so much as preparation for his arrival. I planned for a great proposal. I had built a house for us following his wishes as what he told me when we were young. He wants a 2 story bahay kubo inspired house in the middle of farm with a long driveway lined with canopy of flowering golden shower tree. I still keep the drawing of his dream house framed and hanged in the living room. I have kept all his dreams lock in my memory, all his wishes when he was telling me stories. All his drawing that he gave me all well preserve. I have kept my promise to fulfill all of his dreams and yet he has another person to dream with.

I know he liked me but I have to control my desire to have him, he was forbidden – he is the little brother of my best friend. The first time I saw him was when I was 15 years old in third year high school and he was 10 years old. He was the cutest little kid I have seen prancing on his elf costume. He approached me first and hugged me claiming me his. All I thought he was a girl. His hair tied up, his cheeks were flushed, his eyes twinkling.

"Hello there, you're new here right? Are you friend of my ugly brother?" the little Noelle said to me. "Your so handsome, better looking than ugly Connor. Your mine already huh." And he gave a sloppy wet kiss in my cheeks.

"Noelle what you are doing with my friend," Connor reprimanded his brother. "forgive my little brothere, he is some kind of a pest in my life but my brother is the sweetest"

I don't know how to answer Connor, I was shocked. I thought that little kid is a girl. I'm in a bad predicament just from the hug and kiss of a little boy. I'm such a pervert, how can I talk to my friend straight face when my body reacts lustfully to his little brother.

"Where your comfort room, I need to pee," I asked Connor.

"There's a CR on the hallway going to the kitchen" Connor replied to me then he called his brother. "Noelle don't hugged people without permission, they might be uncomfortable with it"