Illicit Affair (Published With Etluxocpub)

33 - Separation

We went to Phuket for our honeymoon. I have all the intention to enjoy the sights but we end up cooped up in our villa. We went out to stroll and visit some temple on the first day but looking at how temping Noelle is, I have spent most of my waking hours making love to him. I can't seem to get enough of him, for the last two days of our stay I spend it worshipping his delectable body.

I am dreading going back to, this means we will be living separately. He'll stay in Chandler's Headquarters while I have to go back to my hometown to supervise the Chandler's collaboration project with the resort. We haven't talk much about our set up but I think Noelle is avoiding talking about it in as much I don't want to talk about it too.

Fate has a way to twist your life. I left Manila to get on with my life but we met and reconciled while I am away and now I'm stuck with these predicament that I have to stay away from him to honor my contract and to keep Chandler's investment. In as much as we are avoiding discussing this one way or the other we need to work this thing out for the sake my sanity. Thinking of being away from Noelle is such a torture, I don't know if I can handle it better now.

All throughout our flight back to Manila Noelle is silent, he is in somber mode. He is in deep thought that I don't want to disturb him. I just hug him to let him know that I'm there for whatever he is thinking of.

I didn't know that I fell asleep while I was hugging him, he tap my cheeks to rouse me from my nap. He is smiling now and I'm glad that he seems alright now. I don't want to see him sad.

We pass by duty free to buy some of his chocolates and then I saw him hover the adult gift section. I can see his naughty smile as he was holding on to some bottles. To my dismay as we were paying for it, he keeps on blabbering about the tasty edible lube he bought. When I say he bought I mean it seems he bought the entire shelves. I can see the cashier smile as I can feel that I am turning into a tomato.

I'm overwhelmed with his action. I know life with him would never be dull. I am seeing new part of him as we live together. A new Noelle that I haven't seen but I love all that he is showing me.

We took grab taxi going back to their home. We were welcome by his mom and my aunt. They have gotten close by now and I am glad that my aunt is enjoying her vacation. He gave everybody their pasalubong chocos but when asked where's from Phuket he just shook his head and pointed at me.

"We weren't able to buy keepsake or mementos from Phuket because someone opted to cooped up in the villa. I have memorized all nook and cranny of the villa with my 48hrs imposed imprisonment." He sulkily told my aunt in not so many details how we spend our stay in Phuket.

"That's too much info Noelle. Stop polluting the mind of your mom and my aunt." I asked him to please stop sharing details of our stay in Phuket. I didn't know that he feels enclosed all those hours I imposed to stay inside the villa.

After having dinner at their house, we went back to my pad. He was so silent all the way back to my pad even when I tried to talk to him, I just let him be as I know what he is thinking. I have to talk it over to him as it can't be avoided. I'll be leaving on the weekend and I want us to clear things out. I am more than willing to consider arrangement even though it might cost us our much-needed time to rest.

When we reach my pad he went directly to our room and had a shower. I just watch him as he go about his evening rituals even though how much I want to hug and kiss him, I just let him process whatever he is feeling right now. We went to bed without us talking. He went under the comforter and then I felt him shaking. I check on him and there I saw my baby crying. I don't want to acknowledge that parting is bittersweet but we have to deal with this. I gather him in my arms.