One shot stories

" Red "

A oneshot story by yours truly. Author Saddy.
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Regine's POV

Growing up I have always had everything I wanted. I was always determined to get the thing I want by hook or by crook. I didn't care if I wasn't fair, basta't nakuha ko ang gusto ko.

1st year college when I met her. When I entered the The Phlippine conservatory of music. She's so beautiful, hindi ko maiwasang mahulog sa kanya. I tried everything to be close to her even attending piano classes kahit na marunong na ako non para lang makasama siya.

I became her bestfriend pero hindi akko nakuntento sa bestfriend lang. I wanted us to be more.

3rd year college at habang nasa music room kami sa bahay ko. Nagpa-piano siya at nakatingin lang ako sa kanya. We were tasked to make a song for an pcoming event dahil top 2 kami sa klase. Nilakasan ko ang loob ko at habang tumutogtog siya I kissed her. 

But what shocked me more was that she kissed me back.

I was 19 while she was 18 when we were officially a couple. Pero patago, mejo nagtampo pa ako noon nang sabihin niya yun. Kase why the hell would she hide me? may mali ba sakin? f*ck! Anak ako ng isang successful business woman sa dating Spanish Ambassador. Ano nakakahiya sakin?

I was 22 and she was 21 When we graduated in the conservatory. She wanted to pursue her singing career and audition for miss Saigon pero hindi ako pumayag. Alam kong matagal na niyang pangarap iyon at siya na rin ang bread winner nang pamilya nila simula nang mawala ang papa niya pero hindi ko ayang mawala siya sakin.

I told her it's either she stays and be with me or leave and I'll break up with her. Alam kong she didn't have much of a choice but still sinabi ko iyon. 1 week passed at nabalitaan ko nalang na training na nila for the miss saigon. She broke up with me.

2 years passed and narealise kong I can't live without her so I left my booming career here in the philippines and flew to London. Ni hindi ko inisip kung galit ba siya sakin o ano basta't gusto ko siyang makita.

I watched her show and I was so proud of her and what she has accomplished alone. I pulled aome strings para makapasok ako backstage at para maka usap siya. Akala ko sampal ang aabutin ko pero yakap ang nag welcome sakin.

Sobrang saya ko at niligawan ko siya ulit. Kaso sobrang excited yata ng babe ko at siagot ako kaagad. I was so happy and I promised myself that I'll understand her more. Kaya lang dumadaan talaga yung insecurities eh. Pag may kasama siyang lalaki at nagtatawanan sila parang gusto kong hapitin siya at ikulong nalang sa apartment namin.

And the day I was afraid for came. Nag-away sila nang manager nila when an article came out in London times na Lesbian daw si Lea. That she was dating me and that didn't make disney happy.

Ipapalabas pa lang ang Aladdin kung saan siya ag boses ni Jasmine.

" What the hell Lea! Ano to? Sisirain mo lang ang career mo dahil sa lintek na pag-ibig na yan! Nandyan naman yung co-star mo na nililigawan ka, bakit hindi nalang siya?" Galit na sabi ng manager niya habang nandito ako sa may pinto nakikinig sa kanila.

"I love her! Ther's nother wrong with loving someone with the same Gender! It's bnot disgusting or wrong! People made it wrong!" Depensa  ng babe ko kaya natuwa ako. Atleast pnaglalaban niya ako.

"I have nothing against LGBTQ community! But the company does! Nasa contract mo yun Lea! Madedemanda tayo! Now unless you release a statement na kaibigan mo lang si Regine baka bukas makalawa nasa kulungan na tayo!" Sigaw nito. Akala ko sasagot siya. Akala ko dedepensahan niya uli ako pero nagkamai ako. Ilang minuto ang lumipas pero wala akong narinig.

One week passed and and true to her manager's words lea did release a statement that I was just her bestfriend and I just came to visit her. Nag-init ang ulo ko, kumulo ang dugo ko at nandilim ang paningin ko.

I only wanted her to be proud of me but i guess hindi niya kayang gawin yun.

"Babe I'm sorry It was kailangan talaga." She said habang sinusuyo ako.

"I only wanted you to be proud of me! I only wantes to be with you! Pero ano? Pinili mo nanaman yang career mo over me! This is the second time Lea! Napapagod na ako!" Sigaw ko sa kanya. Napaatras siya. this is the first time na masigawan ko siya.

"P-pagod ka na?" Utal niyang tanong.

"Pagod na akonmg habulin ka! Pagod na akong ikahiya! Pagod na ako!" Hindi ko na kinaya at nailabas ko na ang lahat ng hinanakit ko.

"Then leave." Malamig niyang tugon. 

"W-what? Pakiulit nga nang sinabi mo?" I was taken aback. Did she just tell me to leave?

"Pagod ka na diba? Well pagod na rin ako. Pagod na akong suyuin ka kahit kasalanan mo naman. Pagod na akong intindihin ka sa tuwing nagagalit ka sa maliliit na bagay pagod na akong suyuin ka pag may nangyayaring hindi ko naman ginusto. Pagod na akong mahalin ka. Noon palang they said to me na Red flag ka daw. You were a spoiled brat who had everything growing up kaya hindi mo maintindihan ang mga daing ko. You were always used to having everything you ever asked for kaya kinokontrol moko. You weren't used to people saying no to you kaya naging robot ako at sumasang ayon nalang sa lahat ng gusto mo. Pero dahil sa mahal kita I turned a blind eye at naging color blind ako to not see the red flags in your attitudes and behavoir. Sinara ko ang mga tenga ko sa tuwing may sasabihin silang masama dahil sayo. I said to myself di bale nang maubos ako basta't na sakin ka. Basta't masaya ka. But now I realised na ubos-na ubos na ako. Na pagod- na pagod na ako. And you know what? I give up!" Sabi niya at tinalikuran ako.

Dahil sa sinabi niya I realized that I really was the red flag in our relationship. Na kung pagod ako pano nalang kaya siya? Na kung nasaktan ako pano nalang din kaya siya?

I tried to win her back but it was too late.

3 years passed and I watched her move on and soar the field of broadway. I watched her from a far and smiled to each and every achievement she made. tears of pain flowed through my cheeks as I saw her fall in love.

I clapped the loudest when she was the first asian to bring home a Tony Award. 

Isa pala talaga akong gaga to cage someone that brilliant in a toxic environment with  toxic partner like me.

I cried the hardest when she finally married her long time boyfriend.

And now I watch her from my car habang nagpipicnic sila nang asawa't anak niya. She seems so happy. Yung mga ngiti niya abot hanggang tenga. Ni hindi ko man lag namalaan noon that I tainted those beautiful smile. Na matagal ko na palang di nakikita yun simlua nong maging kami.

I can't blame her for loving another dahil I was the red flag in our relationship. Sa istoryang ito ako ang nagkamali pero ako ang labis na nasaktan. I tried to change but it was all worth nothing dahil wala na siya sa piling ko.

I just loved her from a far. I'm already 29and I'm turning thirty next moth pero siya parin.

It's almost 5 years since she last said she loves me pero andito parin ako't minamahal siya. I would never unloved my babe. I could never even if I tried.

I guess I'll just have to love her until the love is gone.

THE END

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-Authorsaddy-