I woke up in niques arms. It was so fucking unreal. I missed her.
Id finally had a good, peaceful sleep.
I look up and studied a sleeping Nique.
Her eye bags were heavy and dark as hell, she'd gotten a little paler and her cheek bones was a little more visible. That wasn't good. She hadn't been taking care of herself; hell I can't say the same about myself either.
I pecked her chin before attempting to move but she'd tighten her grip on me.
"No" she sleepily mumbled out.
I smiled a bit before snuggling back into her.
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I woke up when I felt the bed sink.
"Good morning" Nique grinned with Waffle House in her hand.
I stretched and smiled at her before sitting up.
"Morning"
"You hungry?"
I was nowhere near hungry. Id lost my appetite over the days so I lived off apple sauces and hotdogs here and there. I nodded anyways.
She sat the foldable table infront of me and sat the plate down.
I said my grace and she joined in.
I picked at the food as she at hers. A little.
"Geni what's wrong?"
"Nothing" I said swirling the fork ontop of the eggs.
"Did I get your order wrong?"
"No. This is right" I mumbled.
"So what's wrong? Why're you not eating?"
"I can't. I don't have an appetite.
"G you gotta eat something" she said softly.
"I did"
"One egg isn't enough"
"Neither is three" I retorted looking at her plate after seeing all she ate was the eggs.
She nodded.
"I understand I'm not eating but you have to".
"Nique im not hungry. I'll eat later I promise".
She nodded and grabbed our plates and took them to the kitchen.
I brushed my teeth and washed my face as Nique did the same and then i sat back on the bed.
"Can we talk now?"
I anxiously bit my lip.
"Geni we gotta talk if we wanna get through this"
I started to fiddle with my fingers.
Nique grabbed my hand and face me towards her.
"You do wanna work through this right?"
A tear started to fall.
"I'm sorry mama" she brung me into a hug.
"We don't have to talk right now".
I nodded in her neck as she rubbed my back.
"Did you call your dads?"
I shook my head no.
She handed me her phone and I tossed it aside.
"I-" I started to speak but my groggily voice wouldn't let me.
"Slow down mama".
"In my car I have letters. I wrote them everyday. To you. I want you to read them"
Nique nodded.
"Later ok?"
I nodded and laid on my back.
"Can you at least call your dads?"
"Later ok?" I told her.
She nodded and laid beside me.
"Can you atleast talk to me. Please geni"
I turned to the side and stroked the side of her face.
"I thought leaving you would be the best thing. You'd find a new girl and she'd be able to have your kids. You'd have the family you wanted"
"Ion want no other girl G. Ok so we miscarried the first one, we can try again"
"I don't want to try again Nini. I don't wanna fail again"
"You don't have to just yet" she said kissing my hand.
She wiped the tear escaping from my eye away, kissed my forehead and pulled me ontop of her.
"I think you should get therapy"
"I think WE should get therapy"
i laid my head back on her chest.
"And don't you ever leave me again"
"I ain't ever leave you again"
"Promise?"
"I promise"
"I love you Monique Taliyah"
"I love you too Genesis Ariyah"
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