Peaky Blinders Imagines✔️

Isaiah- Struggling

⚠️TW- talk about multiple miscarriages and struggling to get pregnant

Isaiah and I have been best friends with Finn for years! Tommy, Arthur and John always saw me as a little sister since the day I started hanging around the Shelby brothers. This automatically put me under protection with the Peaky Blinders, although I am more than capable of looking after myself. When I turned 17 Tommy got me a job in the betting shop, but the deal was for me to stay away from the illegal stuff. Saiah and I have been together since we were 16 and now we're 23 and married. We have been trying to have a baby for 2 years, but unfortunately we have had 3 miscarriages.

I walk over to my desk outside of Michaels office and sit down
"Good morning YN, how are you today?" Michael asks
"I'm good thank you Michael" I get out files from the draws of my desk and start to do my work. A couple of hours pass and the betting shop door opens, I look up and see Isaiah walking in with Finn. He walks over to me and kisses my forehead
"You shouldn't be here, you should be at home resting" Isaiah loudly whispers to me
"Shh" I nudge him "if I take time off people will ask questions and I don't want anyone to know" I say sadly. Finn walks over to Michael whose sat in his office. I thought I was pregnant again last week and so we went to the doctors, but I had the results back yesterday telling me that I wasn't pregnant
"Ok, but your upset you should be at home" I shake my head at Isaiah
"Your upset as well but your out here doing jobs for Tommy"
"I'm not just doing jobs for Tommy" the doors open again and Tommy walks in
"Isaiah, Finn, Michael I have a job for you"  I raise a brow
"You were saying?"
"Isaiah!" Tommy shouts getting impatient
"I'll see you later" Isaiah and I share a kiss then he walks off into Tommy's office.

Later that evening when Saiah comes home we sit at the table together while eating our food. Somethings playing on my mind, but I don't know how to bring up that fact I think we should stop trying for a baby
"Hey are you ok?" Saiah obviously being able to see me in thought asks me. Well I guess this is my cue
"Huh? oh. Errm I'm ok, it's just..."
"What?" Isaiah frowns putting down his fork and taking my hand. I take in a deep breath before breathing out
"I think we should take a break with trying for a baby" Isaiah now takes in a deep breathe "I don't think this added stress is helping. Even my period has been weird the last couple of months and we thought I was pregnant. I just think if we stop trying so hard, have sex for the sake of feeling good rather than trying to get pregnant, maybe it will happen"
"What if it doesn't?"
"Then we figure something else out. Maybe adopt an orphan? I don't know yet Saiah. We will figure this out. As long as I have you by my side I really don't care"
"I love you YN"
"And I love you"

1 year later
"Do I look fat to you?" I ask Isaiah running a hand over my bloated stomach
"No you don't. You look 5 months pregnant. Now can we finally tell people  were having a baby. The doctors said we're past the scary part. This is the longest you've carried so please can we tell the others"
"Fine we can tell the others at the meeting today" I give in to Isaiah. We head over to the garrison and to the back room where the meeting is being held. Isaiah and I walk in hand in hand and sit down
"Great now we're all here I want to..."
"Wait errm before we talk about jobs and things. YN and I would like to tell you all something" the room falls silence and everyone looks at me. I give a sheepish smile but before I can tell anyone I hear a gasp. I look at Polly who is staring at me wide eyed
"What's going on?" Arthur asks confused
"So, me and Isaiah are pregnant" concern washes over everyone's faces "but, I've never carried this long before so in 4 months time we should be having a baby"
"Right well I guess a congratulations is in order. And YN your dismissed for early maternity leave"
"Tommy we can't afford..."
"You'll still get paid, I know how much you both want this. Also to keep all stress to a minimum. Isaiah you will take over YN in the betting shop. We need to keep you both as safe as possible. Now let's forget the meeting and celebrate" I smile at Tommy grateful that he's so understanding. He nods at me then pours himself and the others a glass of whisky. He holds it up in the air "to YN and Isaiah" then he drinks his drink, the others following him.