Peaky Blinders Imagines✔️

John- I'll Mary You Pt2

When John proposed the idea of us marrying I really thought he was joking, that was until he wasn't laughing along with me. A week later we were married and I was moved into Johns home that he shared with Martha. Morning sickness was a bitch and it made it rather hard to do everyday tasks such as make breakfast, so Polly was over a lot to help out, but as the 4 month mark hit I was feeling much better and I even had a little bump.
John and I sleep in the same bed, although we haven't slept together. We're taking things slowly, but tonight he said he's taking me out. I had just put on a nice blue dress when he walks into the bedroom
"You look beautiful love" he tells me looking at me through the mirror
"Thank you" I blush a little and rub my hands down the dress my hand grazes over my little bump. At the moment I look like I've had a big lunch, but that's when it hits me that I'm going to be huge soon. I know John married me so protect me from horrible words and I married him to help with the kids, but what will happen when the baby arrives. Will he ignore him or her? I know John wouldn't hurt me or a child, but would he neglect us?
"I have known you long enough now to know exactly what's going on in that pretty little head of yours" John walks up to me and places a kiss on my cheek. He continues to look at me through the mirror "this little one will fit right into the family I promise you. I will be his or her dad and you will be an excellent mum
"I'm just scared. I've been scared the moment I found out I was pregnant. First it was about being a single mum. Now it's, our friendship being over, you not accepting this baby or it being treated differently..." John sighs as turns me around to face him. He looks me in the eyes
"YN, I know this marriage was a little different to how we both imagined our lives going, but I have a secret that I haven't told anyone" John leads me over to our bed and sits me down "when I married Martha, it was because she was pregnant, we were both young and I did care about her but she wasn't the one I wanted to marry. We learned to love each other but it wasn't the type of love I had for this other girl"
"I'm confused John" I frown looking at him
"This other girl was already dating someone so I slept around a bit..."
"A bit. John before Martha you had slept near enough with the whole of Small Heath" I laugh making him smile
"Ok, but not the point. I did it to distract myself from the one I wanted. Got Martha pregnant and you know the rest"
"What are you saying John?"
"Fuck I'm not good with this sorta shit" John places his head in his hands "I slept with Martha to get over you"
"Me?" I reply shocked
"Yes, but then Martha got pregnant and I had to do what was right"
"I see" I nod understanding
"I've not told anyone that, although I think Martha always knew" John looks at me again and sighs
"But you had more kids together"
"Like I said we learned to love each other and tried to make it work"
"Want to know a secret?" John nods "I always thought you were cute growing up"
"You did?" John smirks making me giggle
"Uh hu, but best friend first and all that"
"How about we skip dinner out and eat in as a family?" John asks me
"Sure. I'd like that. Let me change out of this dress and put something more comfortable on"
"You need help?" John tries his luck. I get off the bed laughing and shaking my head. I hope we are able to have a happy and long marriage together.