Peaky Blinders Imagines✔️

Tommy- Old Love Pt1

This was a request and I absolutely loved writing this one! This doesn't follow the tv show at all other than the mention of Grace.

Tommy Shelby. My husband, well now ex husband. The man I loved who went away to war. At first we wrote to one another every chance we got. He would come home when he could and we loved our time together. A year into the war he came home and as always we spent a lot of time together, just us two. After a couple of weeks he had to go back and a week later I found out I was pregnant. Of course I was excited, but that's when the letters stopped. Arthur would still write to tell me Tommy was alive.
After years of fighting, the war changed him. Polly warned me that he would, but I held out hope that he would return home and once again sweep me off my feet. Unfortunately that didn't happen. When he returned the new barmaid would flirt with him and he had no problem flirting back, leaving me to take care of our son alone. After a while I had enough and left him, we got divorced and I moved away with our son. That was until Polly sent me a letter to tell me Tommy was going mad and that she believed that I was the only one who could bring him back. Hesitantly I agreed to come back to Small Heath and see my ex husband once again.

I walk through the streets of Small Heath holding Charlie's hand when I see him, Tommys older brother smoking cigarette outside of the pub, he then notices me
"YN?!"
"Hey Arthur" I walk over to him. He stomps out his cigarette as I approach
"Hey little man" Arthur ruffles Charlies hair up
"Hi uncle Arthur"
"What are you doing back here?" he ask pulling me into a hug
"Polly sent me a letter. Tommy has been acting... odd?" I frown not quite understanding what has been going on. Arthur sighs
"Can we talk without little ears?"
"Sure. I'll drop him off at Polly's"
"Polly and Ada are inside. I own the pub now"
"Ok" I give him a nervous smile and pick Charlie up and follow Arthur into the pub
"YN you came!" Polly runs over to me and hugs both me and Charlie
"Do you mid watching him Pol?"
"Of course come on Mr let's go and get you a lemonade"
"Come with me" I follow Arthur into a little room that the boys would always relax in
"So? You going to tell me what's been going on?"
"Since you've left Tommy has been off the rails. Using opium every night, sleeping with..."
"I don't need to know who he's sleeping with. I left because he was flirting with that barmaid. We barley spoke. He was so obsessed with power, out all night, never let me in. What was I meant to do Arthur?"
"Not leave him. The war fucked him up. Fucked all of us up" Arthur rubs his hands over his face
"And I get that, but he wasn't the only one struggling Arthur. Yes you were in a physical war and I get that I can't imagine what any of you saw or did, but I was there for Tommy through the nightmares. I had to do that alone"
"What do you mean YN? You weren't ever alone"
"I was while you were all at war. I had to put my problems to the side. I'm only just well again" I take in a deep breath and sit down
"I love Charlie. I really do, but after I had him I was sad all the time. I didn't want to go out. Polly said it was just the baby blues, but it lasted longer than it should have.  Every time he cried I would panic, cry, scream. Something was wrong Arthur. I heard about woman harming their children after giving birth. I didn't want to hurt him, but I needed Tommy. I went to an asylum and I was treated for insanity. Polly got me out and helped me"
"Fuck YN why didn't you say anything? Why didn't you tell us you were struggling?"
"How could I?" I shrug tears in my eyes "Tommy was having his own issues. Then that barmaid flirting. It was the final straw Arthur"
"Tommy needs you now more than ever and I think you need him"
"I'll think about it" I stand up and start leaving the room. That's when I see him walking in. Tommy. He looks disheveled, not at all like the man I love.  He looks at me like he's seen a ghost.