Peaky Blinders Imagines✔️

John- Cant Lose Someone Else

Between John and I we have 5 kids. 3 from his previous marriage 2 from mine. When his wife died from an illness and my husband passed away from the war, Tommy Shelby decided that we should marry. John be father to my kids and I be a mother to his kids.
John was handsome, of course he was all of the Shelby's are good looking, but I wanted to marry for love, like I did the first time. So when John and I got married and moved into a house together I slept in one room while he slept in the other. We hardly knew each other barley spoke to one another. He's not cruel by any means, he takes care of me and my kids, but he's very distant. That all change the day I walked into the betting shop at the wrong time.

The day started out as any other. I woke up to an empty bed, got myself ready then got all of the kids dressed and fed
"YN, where's dad?" Katie Johns eldest daughter asks
"I assume the betting shop why?"
"He's just never home"
"I know but he's a very busy man"
"To busy for his own kids" Katie mutters. Before I can reply Katie gets everyone ready to leave for school.
I decide that I need to speak to John about this so I head to the betting shop. When I arrive it seems a bit to quiet. Frowning I open up the door and see a man holding a gun pointing it at Tommy
"YN leave, now" Tommy says looking at me, but the man quickly points the gun at me before I can leave
"No she can stay" the gunman smirks and a shiver goes down my spine "pretty little thing" the man walks over to me and brushes the back of his hand over my cheek
"Don't touch her" John shouts
"Ah well we figured out who she belongs to. Now" he places the metal barrel against my forehead "forfeit the race or I kill her"
"Ok ok. Just let her go" Tommy says
"I want your word"
"You have my word" the man lowers the gun and that's when all hell breaks loose. I'm thrown on the floor hitting my head on something. Gunshots ring through my ears
"John? YN ok?"
"Yeah, bumped head but ok"

"Here" John hands me a wrapped up frozen piece of meat to place on my head
"Thanks" I give him a small smile "sorry I came in at the wrong time"
"Don't apologise YN, but why did you come into the betting shop?"
"This morning Katie said something that upset me a little"
"Katie? As in my quiet daughter Katie?"
"She said that you no longer had time for her and the others. Referring to how you are never home"
"Shit"
"I just wanted to tell you that maybe you should come home for dinner in the evening"
"Do you know why I'm out all of the time?" I shake my head no "it's because I can't lose someone else that I care about. I thought if I kept my distance that I wouldn't care about you and that way my heart doesn't shatter like it did when Martha died"
"John..."
"You nearly getting shot scared me. I thought I was going to lose you when I barley know you and I really want to get to know you. I'm sorry YN I've been a bad husband"
"I understand. I wanted to get married because I loved someone not because of circumstance, hence why I've kept my distance"
"Maybe we should start small"
"Like?"
"How about I cook dinner?"
"You can cook?" I raise an eyebrow
"You have to learn how to with Aunt Polls cookin" I laugh shaking my head "so what do you say? tomorrow night I cook our dinner?"
"I'd like that" I smile up at John. Maybe this is the start of a relationship or even just a friendship. Maybe we can both be content with the decision the Tommy made for us. Maybe he's secretly an amazing match maker.