Peaky Blinders Imagines✔️

John- Hidden Romance (male reader)

Thank you for the request @Destinylove2005
Trigger warning ⚠️ - homophobia because it's the 1920s/30s.
I do not condone homophobic behaviour. I believe you should be able to love who you want and be whoever you want to be. While I don't really write mxm or fxf I want that to change. I want everyone to feel included and I want this to be a space for anyone.
This isn't a super long imagine but I hope you still enjoy.

All his life YN thought there was something wrong with him. He wasn't attracted to woman, ever. He was always attracted to his best friend John. He had heard about men getting arrested for bedding other men so he knew this was a secret he could never speak of. It was illegal. So YN went to church every Sunday, prayed and eventually married a beautiful woman named Charlotte. But she knew. She knew he was gay but chose not to tell anyone.
John also married a woman named Esme so YN tried to move on with his life and suppress he's true self. YN and his wife had a son together while John and Esme were popping out babies left right and Centre. It wasn't until one stormy night things changed before the two men.

They had originally gone out just for a few drinks, but a few turned into many which resulted in a drunken John stumbling into the house hold of YN and Charlotte
"Shhh" Yn places his finger on his lips making John giggle a little "Charlottes asleep we will wake her" YN giggles. He stumbles a little in the kitchen which John manages to keep YN up right. John helps YN sit down on the sofa which is when their eyes catch one another's and YN's fits of giggles stop "you've got nice eyes" YN says without thinking, well he was drunk. YN then places his hands on the side of Johns face and strokes his cheek with his thumbs. John takes a step back not sure how to handle this
"Sober up. I'll see you tomorrow"
"Wait. I'm sorry" YN blurts out stopping John from leaving
"How long have you...." John can't finish his sentence
"A while" YN replies quietly. John moves back away from YN
"I'm sorry YN..."
"You don't like men I understand" YN sighs flopping further into the sofa
"That's not it. I'm married. Your married. It's illegal"
"I know. Why is the world so cruel?"
"I wish I knew. I've loved you for so long too YN"
"Then let's keep it a secret" YN says standing up and walking over to John
"We can't"
"Of course we can. Charlotte knows and she's kept it a secret. I'm sure she will keep us a secret"
"Your still drunk. Why don't you do you sleep and we will talk about this when your sober" with that John leaves YNs house and goes back home to his wife. But unlike YN John likes both men and woman, so he's confused. They both are.

Over the next few months YN and Johns secret romance continues. Esme knows, she's always known just like Charlotte has always known, but she promised to keep it a secret. Yes YN and John are having to keep their romance a secret from the world, but behind close doors they love each other and just hope that one day others will be able to be themselves out in public without fear.