Owned

C35: Goodbyes

ISABELLE

It's funny how you think everything is so good and perfect, and in the next moment it's just...not.

I love Chris, but I don't know if this is something I'm able to overlook just like that. I'm gonna need some time. Which means we're gonna have to be done. And if he's at a point where if I say it's done, and there's no coming back then I'll accept it. I don't want to be looking like a dummy.

There's a part of me that knows that Rayne probably set him up, but still he should know he can't trust her. He still didn't tell me about it. I mean I know I was fresh out a injury but I was gonna find out, and I guess it was quicker than he expected.

I'm just sitting up in my bed as Trey sleeps. I meant what I said about him being the only dude in my life besides my birth father to treat me right. If Trey and Chris switched positions I know I'd be more than happy. But that doesn't mean that's what I want know despite Chris' bullshit. There's just something about Chris that draws me to him...but there's something about Trey that makes me want to be around him. He makes me feel safe.

I've made a decision. And that's that I'm going to leave California. I know that my Dads settled in to the dream house, but I can't be there with Brandon.

Brandon. I hate him too. My first real relationship was with him, and he treated me just like my Dad did. So I'm not surprised at all now that I see that connection. I don't know if I'm gonna tell him about Brandon yet, but if I leave... Does it even matter?

"Someone's in deep thought." Trey sleepily says and I look back at him just laying there

"I got a lot to think about." I reply

"Care to share?" He asks

"I'm gonna have to cause I think I might need your help." I say

He sits up and stretches before facing me.

"With what exactly?"

"I... I really hate asking for this but I promise you I'm good for it." I say and looks confused

"I don't get it..." He says

"I want to leave California." I blurt out and he just stands up and looks at me

"Yo, I know you're upset and shit at Chris but you can't leave. This is your home." He says

I thought he'd be like this. "I know, but I can't go back to work and have to see Chris. I just need to start fresh again." I tell him

"And what about your Dad?" He asks

"What about him? He'll be fine, he has his son and his granddaughter to keep him company." I tell him

"But Isabelle, he went through a lot for you to be with him too." Trey says and now I'm confused because he doesn't know my Dad.

"Trey, my Dad scares me. I love him, but he's done some shit to me that I'm afraid he'll do again. Just like I don't know if I can be with Chris again because I don't want to feel the hurt that I'm feeling at this moment again." I say

"But what about me? You're my friend, someone I like being around..." He tells me and I get an idea.

"Come with me then." I say

"Come with you? Chris will be pissed if I leave with you." He replies

"Make something up, Trey please. Say it's business and you can go back and forth!" I say excitedly but my excitement vanishes when I realize I'm being crazy.

"Trey, never mind. I'm sorry I even asked that much of you. I'm just... I wanna leave but I've never been somewhere else before. I d-"

"I'll go with you." Trey says cutting me off