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C56: Book of Lies

A/N: This is a re-write of 56! I wasn't happy with the other one, but this one is more in the direction that I want to take the rest of this story. Hope you guys enjoy!!

Morning*

Isabelle

     I wake up to Chris sleeping soundly next to me. After all that we've been through, there was one point that I never thought that we'd be like this. Everything is so surreal to be honest. All I know is that I've learned from all the mistakes I've made. Chris was definitely not perfect but neither was I to be honest. I didn't need to leave, after I found out everything. I was hurt, but I had been hurt before and could've stuck it out. I know I can't go back, but I know staying here and working through it would've been a hell of a lot less painful than it was to get to this point through everything else.

      I know I definitely lost my way there for a while too. There was a void without Chris, and it was mad obvious that I was trying to fill it. I thought of being with Trey, I tried to be with OB... And in my selfishness I know I hurt two people that I know cared about me. It just wasn't enough to take Chris out of my heart. I internally punish myself all the time because I feel like I caused a lot of bad shit to happen to people. Sometimes I wish people would call me out on my shit, and make me really stop and think. If someone did that I probably wouldn't pregnant...

     Now don't get me wrong, I love my child already but... it's a broken family from the jump and that's my fault. I let my feelings get the best of me, and I let go. I take responsibility for fucking up. Way to be a hoe Isabelle. I feel like people on the outside looking into my life think I'm perfect and that I must be some angel to have so many people want to be with me but it's not even like that at all. I've just always felt unloved so when Chris came into my life and gave me a small glimpse of how it should be I was hooked and couldn't be without it so I had to get whatever I could, from whoever was willing to give it to me. I swear it was like a drug.

     Regardless of people still threatening and trying to tear us apart, I'm going to do my best to stick through it and support Chris in anyway I can. I know that I have to cut ties with people I thought I'd be close with my whole life... but some people really don't have your best interest at heart. I never thought Dreana would be the way that she is now but it's clear that things cannot go back to the way they used to be. It's just not gonna happen. I know she's in the hospital, and maybe a near death experience has made her regret everything but...it's a little to late for repairs now.

     I have to let certain people know that they can't interfere in my life now. I'm grown. I know my Dad means well, but I didn't need him all those years he was in jail and I don't need him now. Especially cause I've always known he was responsible for my Mother's death. I could never prove it, but in my heart I just knew. He never even talks about her, it was like he didn't even care. He had a solid alibi though, he was with me. He really has no right to tell me how to live my life either. Same goes for his son, who is still a scumbag, but I know he backs his Dad up. They're just a like to be honest.

     Lastly I gotta forgive people that most people think don't even deserve forgiveness. Kae straight up tried to off me. She tried to force Chris to marry her, and wanted to use her own child as bait to do it. Cause she obviously knew that he wasn't gonna marry her under any other different circumstances. That means that I'll have to visit her in prison... But if I really want to start brand new then I have to do all of this, or it'll just be a weight on my shoulders that I don't need.

"In deep thought there huh?"

I shake my head and see that Chris is up. I probably looked crazy as hell staring into space.

"I was actually."

"Oh? About what?" He asks

"A lot. Mostly things I need to do ASAP so I don't feel so bothered."