can't shut my heart up 2

control

~~~small time skip~~~

Angel POV

                     I'm in the kitchen making dinner and catching glimpse of daemon in the mirror from time to time... i just haven't watched enough to get what they're doing... but from what i have seen... i just get a bad feeling... "no one will believe her" they're right... no one believes i have a evil twin who lives in the mirror world or some shit... why would they believe this?-

*thud*

                  I turn around holding out my knife-

An: i SWEAR to FUCKING GOD DEAMON-

P: *yelp*

                     It's phoenix... oh shit she's so scared. She's on the ground with her hands over her head, which is a basic flinch for her... I put down the knife and sigh

An: oh nix it's just you... i didn't mean to scare you, what are you doing outta bed?

P: i... i w-woke up and you weren't there... i didn't want to be alone is all... sorry 

An: aw... is that all?

P: i'm a lil...

An: you a lil hungy monster?

P: *nods*

An: well then you're lucky, i'm making dinner... go nap on the sofa or something okay?

P: *whimper*

An: don't worry, i'll wake you... i promise... now go get some more rest-

P: i don't *yawn* wanna-

An: aye, owners orders... okay?

P: okay

An: atta girl

~~~time skip~~~

An: nix... wanna wake up?

P: hm?

An: dinner's ready if you wanna eat... if not you can keep resting

                    Her stomach growls

An: *chuckle* i guess we better eat

P: sorry

An: what have i told you about apologizing when you did nothing wrong?... now stay here i'll bring the food over, we can eat here

                     She sits up and fixes her hair while i put the food on the coffee table

P: ... y-your arm-

An: is fine... was just a second degree, it'll heal, i'll get it checked tomorrow-

P: ...

An: what's wrong

P: a-after... m-months, no, years of therapy and meditation, trying anything t-to control it i-i... *tears up*

An: hey hey don't cry

P: i-i'm s-still a m-monster

An: no you're not-

P: yes i AM

                      Her eyes flash for a second before she realizes and makes them fade back... she looks at her hands in fear 

P: a-and i c-can't change it i c-can hardly even control-

An: hey... look at me

                   I sit next to her and she looks at me

An: i never knew you turned into that until that night... you can control it fine as far as i'm concerned 

P: you mean t-that?

                     I wipe a tear off her cheek

An: oh course i do... you weren't even IN control you shouldn't blame yourself for it

P: s-still... i n-never wanted t-that THING to come o-out ever again 

An: well... i thought it was kinda cute

P: a blood-thirsty, fire-breathing wolf?        

An:  okay okay okay... the ears were cute

P: thanks i guess... brings a whole new meaning to pup play now that i think about it

An: yeah it might explain some things... like how you like when i scratch behind the ears

                                 I do just that and she smiles

An: let's eat okay?

P: *nods*

Maxine POV

                        ... Iris seems... tired... I think it's best if we rest tomorrow. All of us, no going after the other unstables

M: babygirl?

                         She turns her head while washing the dishes

I: yeah babe?

M: how bout um... we rest tomorrow

I: what?

M: it's getting repetitive and i mean... you should rest yanno?

I: maxine... are you tired? hurt?

M: w-what? no

I: max, i can tell something's going on, i've known ya long enough, the truth

                             Of course, i'm tired, i'm always the first one to try and help i can't help it but i need to keep going... i just wanna make sure iris and the others rest up i... i can p-plan this i can make them think it's for everyone else, i don't need a break...

I: you're hesitating~

M: a-am not just... j-just thinking

I: oh really now