He Was My First Little Love

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"Oh my gosh El! You saw him in the party?! But how? Is he invited too?" sunod-sunod na tanong sa akin ni Adie. I tell her what happen last night in the party. Pati ako ay hindi rin naman makapaniwala na naandon siya at hindi na rin ako nag-abala na alamin kung bakit siya nandoon sa party. 

"So what happened? Did you guys talk or what?" she asked. I take a deep sigh, wala naman akong magagawa kundi ang magkwento dahil kukulitin lang niya ako nang maigi kapag hindi ko sa kanya sinabi. 

"Vous paraissez magnifique comme d'habitude." he said while smiling at me. I just stare at him with no reaction on my face. Is this real?! How the heck he's doing here? Part din 'ba siya ng party na 'to, but how?

Masyado ata akong natagalan sa pagtitig sa kanya, so I immediately look away and save myself from embarrassing moment. I immediately take a step inside the elevator as it opened. Pipindutin ko na sana yung elevator para magsara pero tahimik lang siyang pumasok at tumayo sa may gilid ko. I saw  on my peripheral view that he's a bit closer to me, so I distance myself from him. All I feel is awkwardness while remembering what he said to me earlier. I know some French word, so I understand what he said. 

Hanggang ngayon nagagandahan pa rin siya sa akin? I'm asking myself like a crazy girl. I shook my head and erase all the thought that coming inside my head. Stop that thought Elowen, hindi na siya nagagandahan sa iyo. If he truly see me as a gorgeous woman, why he cheated on me in the past? I laugh bitterly while reminiscing all the sad past that I experienced with him. Lahat 'yon naandito pa rin, all the trauma... the pain... and the heart ache... I moved on but I will never forget that.

"I'm so proud of you Elo. You're a successful model now. You really achieve all the dreams you've, I can't still believe you want to be a model , I thought you want to be a nurse. I guess, dream can change." I never said anything after I heard that from him. I don't need his compliment. We're strangers now, so what's the purpose of  saying those words. It's not that important, so I just ignored his presence while we're inside the elevator. 

Sa wakas ay nagbukas na ang elevator. I walk fast para hindi na niya ako maabutan. I came here with a car that I rent while I'm here in France, agad kong hinanap kung saan nakapark yung car ko. I look everywhere but I can't find it. I tried to use my remote key pero walang tumutunog na kotse. Well, hindi naman na bago sa akin ang ganitong scenario, mabilis talaga akong makalimot kung saan ako nag park ng kotse kaya kung minsan nagpapatulong pa ako sa guard para mahanap 'yon.  

What unlucky day dahil wala ng guard sa parking lot, so I have no one to ask for help to find my car. I don't have any choice, I call kuya pero mukhang tulog na dahil hindi niya na sinasagot ang tawag ko. Pinilit kong lakarin at libutin ang buong parking lot pero masyado 'tong malaki kaya hindi ko mahanap. Madilim na rin kaya hirap akong matanaw ang ibang kotseng naandito.

"Wala 'bang susundo sa iyo?" napapikit na lang ako sa inis dahil naandito na naman siya. Hindi 'ba siya marunong makiramdam na ayokong makausap siya. I face infront of him and smile a bit. Hindi 'ba siya nakakaramdam ng pagiging awkward sa pagitan namin?! I mean it's normal to feel that after what happened to us before. 

"Meron, you can go now." I simply said. I waited him to leave but he stayed beside me at parang may kung anong ginagawa sa phone niya. I'm not curious about him pero ano ba kasing ginagawa pa niya rito?  Paminsan-minsan ay napapatingin ako sa kanya at ganoon din siya kaya napapaiwas ako.

"I'm waiting for someone too."  he said while still smiling at me. He's crazy to smile at me like that. Mas lalo lang tuloy akong naiinis tapos makakasama ko pa siya rito, sino 'ba kasing iniintay niya at hindi pa dumarating.