He Was My First Little Love

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Maraming nagsasabi na hindi nagwo-work ang LDR (long distance relationship) dahil mahirap ang communication at hindi niyo nakakasama ang isa't isa but base on my experienced, I would say that mahirap talaga, minsan may misunderstanding pero naayos naman agad at may problema naman na hinahayaan na lang at pinapalipas kahit hindi pa naayos kasi nga walang usap na nangyayari. 

I take a deep breath while sitting in the side of my dressing room. After my mom died, I need to take a break because of the trauma that it caused to me, kinailangan kong magpunta sa psychiatrist to know what's the condition of my mental health. I was diagnose of having a PSTD, it's a mental health condition. After one year, I became okay and I continue to work as a model, yun nga lang naging busy ako masyado sa career ko, so nabawasan ang time ko makausap si Zheil but I let him understand my situation. I explained to him everything and I'm so happy because I know he understand.

I call Zheil many times but he didn't answer my calls. Now is our fifth year anniversary and I promised to him that I will go to Philippines pero naandito pa ako sa Canada at may pupuntahan pa na shoot. Last week pa sana gagawin ang photoshoot pero nagkaroon ng emergency so kailangan gawi  na ngayon. Ayokong paasahin si Zheil sa sinabi kong pangako kaya I leave a message in his account para mabasa niya

Elo_bharton: Hey babe! I'm sorry I can't go now to you. May emergency kasi akong need i-shoot. it's really big project to me so please understand my situation, hmm? I love you! Happy fifth anniversary to us. 

"El Let's go kanina pa kita tinatawag!" Adie called me. 

"Adie I need to go to the Philippines now, can I? I promise to Zheil na uuwi ako ngayon kasi anniversary namin, please?" I tried to ask her if I can, but she shook her head and sigh.

"El think carefully, this shoot was your big project since you started modelling, kaya kang pasikatin nito. Di ba you said to me that you want to be a big star in this industry?" I nod slowly "So here is your chance! Grab this El. Hindi ka iintayin ng trabahong 'to. Once you throw this away, wala ka nang babalikan. I know Zheil will understand it but for now, you need to focus on this shoo. Kailangan matuwa sa'yo si Ms. Russo. Don't si" She tapped my shoulder bilang pang pagaan ng aking loob. 

Nang makarating kami sa shooting area ay agad na nagsimula akong picturan. I wear a lot of clothes na mismong si Ms. Russo, isang sikat na designer ang gumawa. Adie was right, mas mapapadali akong sumikat kapag naging maayos 'to. I heard that this designer was really famous and marami na rin siyang napasikat na mga model niya. It takes six hours kaya hindi ko naiwasan ang mangawit at magkaroon ng back pain dahil sa mahabang oras na pagtayo. 

I check the time and I think may oras pa ako para makapunta ng Pilipinas. I ask Adie to buy me a flight ticket para maihabol ko ang celebration namin

"El here's your ticket. Ingat ka." kaagad kong kinuha yung ticket sa kamay niya. I get a taxi para pumunta na ng airport. I check my phone if there's a message from Zheil but he just seen my chat. I call him again pero wala ni isa ang sinagot niya. I guess he's mad at me. Hindi ko na sinabi sa kanya na uuwi ako ngayon just to surprise him.