My L490 - Part 1

Chapter 20 - The Date (Part 1)

I woke up to music the next morning, the sun was shining into my bedroom and I wasn't sure if last night was a dream, did our lips touch? I put my hand to my lips, they tingled and I remembered it like it was happening right then. I smiled and got out of bed, as I opened the curtains I saw him standing at the swimming pool and he looked up, he had clearly been swimming and was about to dive in, I opened the balcony door and walked out, "Morning" he smiled up at me, "Morning, Jason took Liv out, they went down to the silver lakes for the day." I looked out at the view trying to not stare at his dripping wet body, his hair was all spiked from the water and I couldn't breath, "Sounds good", then he said something totally out of character "I want to take you somewhere, get dressed meet me downstairs in 30mins", I looked back at him, "Sure". I walked back inside and ran into the bathroom, jumping up and down, needless to say I was excited. I jumped in the shower and managed to get ready within 20 mins, I added some gloss to my lips. I grabbed my phone and gave myself one last look in the mirror, it would have to do, my hair was all waves today from the curls falling straight.

I made my way out the door and down stairs as he was coming out the kitchen, he had tight black jeans, his black boots and a black leather jacket on, he handed me a helmet and told me to get a jacket, a warm one. I ran back up to my room and grabbed my leather jacket and met him out on the patio. We locked the house and went out to the covered garage, as he opened it I saw the most beautiful motorbike I had ever laid eyes on, he looked at me "Ready for adventure?" he pulled the bike out and closed the garage door and started the bike, it was loud, strong and vibrated through me, he held his hand out and I climbed on, my legs on either side of his, I put the helmet on and he looked back at me "Hold on tight". I wrapped my arms around his waist and couldn't believe how close our bodies were, he pulled away and sped down the road, he made his way to the main motorway and as we got onto it, he sped up, I felt the wind hitting us, but never had I ever felt so safe.

He finally got off the motorway and he pulled onto a road which ran along the coast, I looked out and watched the sea pass by at a speed, it was beautiful, he pulled into a parking lot and switched off the bike, he held his hand out behind him and helped me off, I took the helmet off and shook my hair out, I looked back at him and caught him looking at me. I glanced around and noticed we were near the beach, there were a few buildings around and I had no idea where we were, he took my hand and we walked around the front of a massive building, "I needed to show you something" and he opened the door to a huge warehouse, we went upstairs and he opened the door to a small apartment, it was a beautiful open space, it had large windows overlooking the ocean and on one side I saw it, there was photography equipment set up, this was his place it dawned on me. This was the place that was on the gossip sites, where he had met the model.

"So this is my apartment, I work form here for my company, we do all the photography here, but there's something we need to talk about" he pulled me over to the sofa and we sat down, "After today, if you want me to leave you alone I understand, but this is me telling you who I am." he looked so serious but my heart just wanted to make him smile "Look Charley, I am a lot older than you, I have done things I am not proud of, and I really don't know how to trust anyone, I don't believe in anything good, I don't think I deserve anything good in my life. I have only known pain, and I find that pain is real, at least the pain makes me know I am alive. Anything good that has ever come into my life has been ripped away, so I push it away before it hurts me." I couldn't believe his blatant honesty, I looked around and I got up, I walked over to the equipment and I realised, the girl from that night, she was a model, she was his model. It felt like my heart had been ripped from me again, "Is this how you met her?" I asked, not sure he would answer I walked along to the windows, waiting for an answer, I didn't look at him, "Yes, we got involved after she did a job for us", I looked over to him now, he just sat there. I was angry, I was sad, and I felt like I had been ripped apart. "So, why am I here now?" I asked, he looked to me "I want to be honest with you, I don't want to hurt you", I laughed at that, "Really?" I slid my jacket off and threw it on the sofa, "Why? What makes me different to her?" he got up and came over to me, he put his hands out to hold me and I stepped back "Don't" I walked to the equipment, "How do you like it?" I stood at the sofa that was in the shot, I sat back on it and looked into his eyes, "Like this?" my hair flowing behind me I kneeled on the sofa looking back at him, posing, "Or do you want the more sweet and innocent look?", he walked towards me "Stop it Charley!!" I got up and walked to him, "Isn't that what you like?" My body burning from anger, why did he bring me here to show me this, I gestured at the room and asked "This is what you chose isn't it?", he looked sad, "I wanted to show you my past, I wanted you to see the mistakes I made, and maybe you will understand why I am so closed to anything.", I looked into those caramel eyes "Why? Why can't you just let me in!?" I realised I shouted at him. He grabbed me then and held me firmly in his grasp, "Dammit Charley, I am falling in love with you!!" I stopped, I think I stopped breathing right at that moment, I wasn't sure anything was real anymore "You what?" he looked into my eyes and pulled me into him, he held me there for what felt like forever, he slowly let me go "I am falling in love with you and it scares the shit out of me! It is not something I do", I was angry, and I am not sure why, I pulled away and said "Well then don't" I walked over to the window and stood with my back to him. I was shaking, I just told him not to love me, now what?