don't hurt me please I've had enough (Mammon angst)

chap 29

im shocked i have gone so far! Anyways ill put a 7.5k special please request here ➪

i took a few days of since i was so busy

keywords:
thoughts
"Talking
important word or timeskips

TW: bloodand other stuff

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Jan look's at him and asked worriedly "are you sure?"

"yup" he said smiling at them not wanting yo make them worry

Jan nodded as mammon gets up and walked tobthe bathroom he saw the blade and ran to it did jan see this?! Well they didn't react much.. Lets clean this up fast
hE thought

He picked the blade up and storing it back to the cabinet he clean off the blood seeing his arm it was filled with blood and took it off and putted a new one he hid all the evidence of him doing self harm

He sighed of relief and left the bathroom changing into a very comfy hoodie he looked to the side seeing jan sleep for the first time

It was a sign she was close to their sleeping time he sighed as he walks back to his bed getting comfy in it

Lets just hope when jan leaves Mammom is still ok..

Mammon slowly falling a sleep letting the darkness consume him

Mammons dream

Mammon was in a very dark place with a girl the same girl who he aaw died in his dream the little girl was crying

She looks at him with sadness and tears "why would you say it WHY WOULD YOU SAY WHERE I WAS, IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT I WOULD HAVE NEVER DIED" %@~!& said blaming him

Mammon felt closento this person he didnt like what she was saying

"trust me i didn't mean too he he forced me he made me believe his sweet words!" mammon said with tears falling down his cheeks

The girl cried saying "I HATE YOU, I HATE YOU. ITS ALL YOUR FAULT" as she slowly gets consumed by the darkness and she was gone

Mammon hated this he heard someone call him he turns around he looks at her it was his mom "mammon why did you let mommy die, why didnt you help me.." his mom said

That hurted mammon more his tears was like a waterfall not stopping

"mom.. I didn't mean to i trie-" mamon got cut offed "TRIED? THEN WHY DID I DIE INSTEAD OF YOU. WHY DID YOU LIVE WHILE I DIED" his mom shouts at him

"mom i-i tried to save you.." mammon said crying his mom opens her mouyh and said the words mammon would not think his mom would say "I HATE YOU, I WISH YOU WERE NEVER BORN" she said

Mammon looked shock falling down and he saw his mom running away and disappearing he heard whispers from the back seeing his friends he looks at them feeling a Little happier

But he saw their faces they all looked digusted yuki said "ew why are we even friends with him" she said disgusted and nero said "i know right, i also heard hes the cause Of his mom and %@~&! Death"

Mammon looks at then with tears and said "i-i didnt guys please dont leave me too"

Yumi looks at him disgusted "dont touch us!, also we dont wanna be friend with a killer, we. Hate. You" yumi said and the 2 agrees

Mammon cried he looks at the side seeing derek digusted and disappointed and he leaves mammon alone

He cried..

End of mammons dream

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I made it kinda sad ig been sleep feprived now im tired and need sleep good nightt